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i keep thinking its all a dream im gonna wake up and shell be here. then i open my eyes and i see no one i hear no one. what did i do to deserve this what did my dad do to deserve this. i just want to know. why would she do this. Ive been strong in front of ppl even my dad. it just isnt worth the tears althogh thats all i can do is cry when im alone . knowing i might not see her for a long time. tears wont get me newhere they wont solve the problem they wont wipe away my feelings. i just think of when my dad and mom got divorced how easily i forgot about her sure i think of her everynow and then but not enough i feel like that will happen to us and brigette like for some reason we wont talk nemore it will slowly stop until one day i realize i havent heard her voice in years. i havent seen her grow up i havent been there for her. i dont want to forget about brigette i love her soo much god it hurts so bad my stomach hurts just thinking about it in fact i need to go i think im about to be sick thank you michelle and keri for talking to me i love you both more than nething