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I'm having a bad night...and I miss Ryan. I haven't talked to him in 2 months. Which is about how long our lil silences usually last. I know this time it's for good though. I can't stand the way I feel. I hate wanting to be friends with someone I know isn't good for me. I hate missing someone so bad that it makes you feel like you're missing part of yourself. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants so bad to try to contact him and just say hi. Just to tell him how much I miss being his friend and miss all the good times. Just so he knows I still care about him as a human being even though we don't get along. Sometimes I wish I never met him. Because then I would have never fallen in love with his personality.
I don't understand why People think it is such a fun thing to just take advantage of me at any given time. I am really tired of letting people walk all over me. I try to just be a nice person, but even here lately...I have been putting my foot down and saying NO! and people still don't listen. I don't know what to do and I don't know how to stop it. For as long as I can remember I could never tell a friend no. Now I do and it's like they don't hear me. Everyone has their breaking points and I'm nearing mine again.
Sorry to be so depressing tonight LJ but life is beginning to be sour. Blah!
I don't understand why People think it is such a fun thing to just take advantage of me at any given time. I am really tired of letting people walk all over me. I try to just be a nice person, but even here lately...I have been putting my foot down and saying NO! and people still don't listen. I don't know what to do and I don't know how to stop it. For as long as I can remember I could never tell a friend no. Now I do and it's like they don't hear me. Everyone has their breaking points and I'm nearing mine again.
Sorry to be so depressing tonight LJ but life is beginning to be sour. Blah!