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This may be the best feeling EVER: updating from my BED! No, I didn't get a lap top...my brother did :-)
------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
*Ever been so drunk you blacked out: nope, it seems I know when to stop!
* Missed school because it was raining: Not because it was raining, but for several other bullshit reasons...
*Put a body part on fire for amusement: haha...yes...sock fuzz is fun!
*Been hurt emotionally: Yep
*Kept a secret from everyone: Not often
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: uhh...a couple of times
* Had a crush on a teacher: No, although Mr. Walseth is pretty attractive
*Ever thought an animated character was hot? Only Bugs Bunny (you know what I'm talking about Garth)
* Cut your own hair: When I was 5
-----------------FAVOURITES------------------
* Shampoo: Redken
*Day/Night: night (duh...look at the time of this entry!
* Summer/Winter: ummm...spring
* Lace or satin: satin
* Favorite cartoon: Recess
* Favorite Food: ice cream
*Favorite Movie: This changes almost daily but...10 things I have about you, Bridget Jones' Diary...
* Favorite Ice Cream: cake batter from Coldstone
*Favorite Subject: ummmm...Science? but not physics :-(
* Favorite 'normal' drink: water
* Favorite Persons to talk to online: Kristin...oh wait, that's the ONLY person I talk to online...
----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: tank top and PJ pants
* hair: down and sort of greasy
* Eating: nothing...but I wish I had some candy
* Drinkin: water
* Thinking about: the huge amount of homework I DIDN'T do this weekend
* listening to: crap music on 101.3 because I can't find my remote
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: nope
* Cleaned your room: No, although I should have
* Done laundry: fuck! I started a load...
* Drove a car: yes
-------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
* Yourself: depends on what I'm doing
* Your friends: uh huh
* Santa Claus: nope
* UFO's: no
-------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? duh...Alex ♥♥
* Who have u known the longest of your friends? mimi...she and I were friends @ Sunnyside
* Who's the weirdest: Kristin...I mean that in the nicest way possible
* Who do you go to for advice: Kristin I guess...or my sister
* Who do you cry to: Alex
* What's the best feeling in the world: working hard for something and having it pay off
* Worst Feeling: feeling alone even though you aren't
I was looking through all of my old emails and I realized how much my life has changed over the past 4 years. When I left middle school, I had a handfull of friends and tons of crushes on the asshole boys from school. Soon after ninth grade began, my handfull of friends was quickly reduced to more like 2...and I spent most of my time at Mimi's house and colorguard.
Sophomore year, I became friends with Kristin (who I had thought was annoying the year before) and an array of other weirdos (love you kristin!). We spent the majority of our free time driving past the houses of guys we had never really talked to but fantisized about daily, smoking, and acting like idiots. I was obsessed with shopping at saver's, listening to bad music (with the exception of my newly found obsession with incubus), and shoplifting. I completely lost Mimi as a friend, which was my own fault and one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. Summer after sophomore year, I started hanging out with Alex, gave it up after only 3 weeks, got caught shoplifting, smoked and drank too much, and felt really used most of the time.
Junior year is kind of a blur. I had really hard classes and was devoted to colorguard and Alex. WGI was a bust and pretty much ruined the idea of rejoining colorguard.
This year, I don't know who I am. Without colorguard, I have no talents to speak of, no passion, no drive. I have one friend to speak of, a pretty much dead end job, and shitty grades.
Reading through my old emails, I realized how much I miss sophomore year, even though it was probably the most fucked up time of my life so far. I was experiencing new things, testing my limits, and I had great friends that I had fun with.
I miss Dorie. As much as I wish I could just chock the loss of her friendship to changing personalities, I can't help feeling like she wanted to leave us all behind. When I look at her now, almost a year after we began noticing a difference, I have no idea who she is. The kindness has faded from her eyes and a new cool that comes with being accepted into the pop. crowd has taken its place. She was my best friend, and now I can't even hold a conversation with her.
I guess what I'm realizing is people change, times change, and there isn't one thing we can do to stop it. For some reasons I miss those times in my life but for others I love my current situations.
what a ride. here comes another drop-off...
------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
*Ever been so drunk you blacked out: nope, it seems I know when to stop!
* Missed school because it was raining: Not because it was raining, but for several other bullshit reasons...
*Put a body part on fire for amusement: haha...yes...sock fuzz is fun!
*Been hurt emotionally: Yep
*Kept a secret from everyone: Not often
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: uhh...a couple of times
* Had a crush on a teacher: No, although Mr. Walseth is pretty attractive
*Ever thought an animated character was hot? Only Bugs Bunny (you know what I'm talking about Garth)
* Cut your own hair: When I was 5
-----------------FAVOURITES------------------
* Shampoo: Redken
*Day/Night: night (duh...look at the time of this entry!
* Summer/Winter: ummm...spring
* Lace or satin: satin
* Favorite cartoon: Recess
* Favorite Food: ice cream
*Favorite Movie: This changes almost daily but...10 things I have about you, Bridget Jones' Diary...
* Favorite Ice Cream: cake batter from Coldstone
*Favorite Subject: ummmm...Science? but not physics :-(
* Favorite 'normal' drink: water
* Favorite Persons to talk to online: Kristin...oh wait, that's the ONLY person I talk to online...
----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: tank top and PJ pants
* hair: down and sort of greasy
* Eating: nothing...but I wish I had some candy
* Drinkin: water
* Thinking about: the huge amount of homework I DIDN'T do this weekend
* listening to: crap music on 101.3 because I can't find my remote
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: nope
* Cleaned your room: No, although I should have
* Done laundry: fuck! I started a load...
* Drove a car: yes
-------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
* Yourself: depends on what I'm doing
* Your friends: uh huh
* Santa Claus: nope
* UFO's: no
-------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? duh...Alex ♥♥
* Who have u known the longest of your friends? mimi...she and I were friends @ Sunnyside
* Who's the weirdest: Kristin...I mean that in the nicest way possible
* Who do you go to for advice: Kristin I guess...or my sister
* Who do you cry to: Alex
* What's the best feeling in the world: working hard for something and having it pay off
* Worst Feeling: feeling alone even though you aren't
I was looking through all of my old emails and I realized how much my life has changed over the past 4 years. When I left middle school, I had a handfull of friends and tons of crushes on the asshole boys from school. Soon after ninth grade began, my handfull of friends was quickly reduced to more like 2...and I spent most of my time at Mimi's house and colorguard.
Sophomore year, I became friends with Kristin (who I had thought was annoying the year before) and an array of other weirdos (love you kristin!). We spent the majority of our free time driving past the houses of guys we had never really talked to but fantisized about daily, smoking, and acting like idiots. I was obsessed with shopping at saver's, listening to bad music (with the exception of my newly found obsession with incubus), and shoplifting. I completely lost Mimi as a friend, which was my own fault and one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. Summer after sophomore year, I started hanging out with Alex, gave it up after only 3 weeks, got caught shoplifting, smoked and drank too much, and felt really used most of the time.
Junior year is kind of a blur. I had really hard classes and was devoted to colorguard and Alex. WGI was a bust and pretty much ruined the idea of rejoining colorguard.
This year, I don't know who I am. Without colorguard, I have no talents to speak of, no passion, no drive. I have one friend to speak of, a pretty much dead end job, and shitty grades.
Reading through my old emails, I realized how much I miss sophomore year, even though it was probably the most fucked up time of my life so far. I was experiencing new things, testing my limits, and I had great friends that I had fun with.
I miss Dorie. As much as I wish I could just chock the loss of her friendship to changing personalities, I can't help feeling like she wanted to leave us all behind. When I look at her now, almost a year after we began noticing a difference, I have no idea who she is. The kindness has faded from her eyes and a new cool that comes with being accepted into the pop. crowd has taken its place. She was my best friend, and now I can't even hold a conversation with her.
I guess what I'm realizing is people change, times change, and there isn't one thing we can do to stop it. For some reasons I miss those times in my life but for others I love my current situations.
what a ride. here comes another drop-off...