write for free here
this is the part where i spill my guts and tel everyone on lj about my days and how they are and why i think they are this way
in reality all i want to do is call my best friend and tell her whats going on maybe cry on her lap and smoke one or maybe have a glass of wine to really let loose or a shot or two.
this whole writing to for yourself bit gets old fast and its not as if i have been writing much anyway but lately it feels like even if i put it on paper its still hanging on to me.
before when i was more me than anyone i used to be able to write it all out and when that last word was typed or written say "oh wow, i feel so much better. bring on the party. im happy again" today it seems like all the words are in vain and all the thoughts and emotions behind it too dense.
so being single should be great.
we're approaching the new year.. in fact we're only a few days away from it but wil this new year bring new things or will it be the same old bullshit as the rest of 08. lats year or the year before last i posted something about the new year and how people say it brings new things and how i thought it was for fools to think that. this year id like to go into the new year with a new mentality and a whole new perspective on life just to see if everything can change. "a toast for change" ill say when the clock strikes 12.
you're a good idea. then a bad one. then a good one. then a bad one. etc...