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When I was applying for universities, I always thought it would be much more of an experience to go somewhere different and live away from home. Now that I'm here, I think it is an experience; I do have independence and can do almost anything I want. But the only problem I'm having now is that, after a year and a half, I'm already bored of the city. I'd love to have stayed in London where there's a million more things to do but then I'd be too close to home and my mother would be monitoring my every move. So I'm stuck here, forced to go to the same boring clubs and see the same boring faces. I'm so sick of seeing second year Economists everywhere I go. I thought I was getting paranoid, but the fact is that the students are concentrated within such a small area of the city that it really is possible to see them everywhere. I don't like that.. community.. my arse. I'd rather see new people everyday than the same people everyday.
Also now that I don't have a job the days seem so much longer. I know that different people require different hours of sleep each night, but I seriously don't think that the four hours I get every night is healthy. I'm not even tired when I go to sleep; I just lay there staring at the ceiling wishing I were staring at the night sky instead. But then every time I do stare at the night sky.. I remember an event that I'd rather forget. So anyways I lay there blankly waiting patiently to go to sleep. After about an hour or so I start to panic because I won't be able to wake up for my lectures in the morning if I don't get to sleep. Then I try to force myself to sleep by figuring out how I go to sleep the previous night, but this is impossible to do. You simply fall asleep; I haven't spoken to anyone that knows exactly where the sleep button is and how to operate it. So I'm still awake, I stand up, have a few sips of water, stare at my poster and maybe read a book or write something. Come 6am I'm still awake... and the routine continues night after night. It's something I can't get out of. When I do sleep, I go into a deep sleep with vivid dreams, which I think is quite unusual for insomniacs, as they tend to sleep lightly.
I think that my sleep problem comes from the fact that I have way too much energy during the daytime, and since I don't have my job anymore I have nowhere to exert that energy. I'm looking for adventure and excitement during the daytime, which I can't get from university. I want to bungee jump off Clifton suspension bridge, to sky dive over the downs, to skate all the way down whiteladies road then down Park street (as dangerous as it sounds, I'm sure it'll be exhilarating), to abseil down Wills memorial building, or maybe even cabot tower. I just want to do something fun because I feel free in every sense and I want to celebrate that feeling.
Now I have to go my friends are waiting...
Also now that I don't have a job the days seem so much longer. I know that different people require different hours of sleep each night, but I seriously don't think that the four hours I get every night is healthy. I'm not even tired when I go to sleep; I just lay there staring at the ceiling wishing I were staring at the night sky instead. But then every time I do stare at the night sky.. I remember an event that I'd rather forget. So anyways I lay there blankly waiting patiently to go to sleep. After about an hour or so I start to panic because I won't be able to wake up for my lectures in the morning if I don't get to sleep. Then I try to force myself to sleep by figuring out how I go to sleep the previous night, but this is impossible to do. You simply fall asleep; I haven't spoken to anyone that knows exactly where the sleep button is and how to operate it. So I'm still awake, I stand up, have a few sips of water, stare at my poster and maybe read a book or write something. Come 6am I'm still awake... and the routine continues night after night. It's something I can't get out of. When I do sleep, I go into a deep sleep with vivid dreams, which I think is quite unusual for insomniacs, as they tend to sleep lightly.
I think that my sleep problem comes from the fact that I have way too much energy during the daytime, and since I don't have my job anymore I have nowhere to exert that energy. I'm looking for adventure and excitement during the daytime, which I can't get from university. I want to bungee jump off Clifton suspension bridge, to sky dive over the downs, to skate all the way down whiteladies road then down Park street (as dangerous as it sounds, I'm sure it'll be exhilarating), to abseil down Wills memorial building, or maybe even cabot tower. I just want to do something fun because I feel free in every sense and I want to celebrate that feeling.
Now I have to go my friends are waiting...