So here's a little update
I'm at my dad's in CA at the moment, not a whole lot going on, just revising for exams (or trying to!)
Since my last post so much stuff has happened, I don't really want to go into it at the moment. I was in a very bad place for a while, now not so much. I've turned things around and am now on this great big wave of positivity. :)
I've started seeing Jamie (this started after I got my act together, though). And it's going really REALLY well, it's actually getting kinda serious....except......He's a masters student from Canada. So, that means, that come September, he is GONE.
Why do I always do this to myself? My best friend Ella went all Freud on my ass and decided that I have abandonment issues linked to my father and therefore I seek out relationships that will leave me...abandoned. Makes sense, I suppose.
BUT for now, I'm enjoying it, trying not to think about September too much and just treating the whole thing like a learning experience. The fact that he's 5 years older means that I've learned a lot of stuff about people, sex and relationships. (And the sex, btw...pretty damn good!) He's so confident that he has no problem telling me exactly how he feels about me and about all the things that he likes (loves?) about me. The whole thing feels pretty amazing at the moment. This time away at my dad's (2 weeks) was supposed to give me some distance from the situation, but we talk and message on Facebook every day, and yesterday he called and we talked for almost 2 hours. I <3 Skype :)
When I get back, I'll spend a few days in London before going home to do work experience. And guess who else will be in London the day I get in? Yes, Jamie. And he says that he definitely wants to see me that day, even though I'll be a mess and we'll both be horny as hell and not be able to do a damn thing about it.
Since my last post so much stuff has happened, I don't really want to go into it at the moment. I was in a very bad place for a while, now not so much. I've turned things around and am now on this great big wave of positivity. :)
I've started seeing Jamie (this started after I got my act together, though). And it's going really REALLY well, it's actually getting kinda serious....except......He's a masters student from Canada. So, that means, that come September, he is GONE.
Why do I always do this to myself? My best friend Ella went all Freud on my ass and decided that I have abandonment issues linked to my father and therefore I seek out relationships that will leave me...abandoned. Makes sense, I suppose.
BUT for now, I'm enjoying it, trying not to think about September too much and just treating the whole thing like a learning experience. The fact that he's 5 years older means that I've learned a lot of stuff about people, sex and relationships. (And the sex, btw...pretty damn good!) He's so confident that he has no problem telling me exactly how he feels about me and about all the things that he likes (loves?) about me. The whole thing feels pretty amazing at the moment. This time away at my dad's (2 weeks) was supposed to give me some distance from the situation, but we talk and message on Facebook every day, and yesterday he called and we talked for almost 2 hours. I <3 Skype :)
When I get back, I'll spend a few days in London before going home to do work experience. And guess who else will be in London the day I get in? Yes, Jamie. And he says that he definitely wants to see me that day, even though I'll be a mess and we'll both be horny as hell and not be able to do a damn thing about it.