how did i end up like this?
getting away with my family for a couple of days didn't help...
it just gave me time to push my feelings deeper away
and now i really do have nothing
i have no one
the only person i "have" isn't really there because of drugs
and i don't know if he ever really was there
and now i'm getting bitched at but i just can't even hear what it is that i did THIS time.
because whatever it is that i do i just cant comprehend
i'm fucked up
i fuck people up
i fuck everything up
i just need to get away by myself for a while
i think i will
it just gave me time to push my feelings deeper away
and now i really do have nothing
i have no one
the only person i "have" isn't really there because of drugs
and i don't know if he ever really was there
and now i'm getting bitched at but i just can't even hear what it is that i did THIS time.
because whatever it is that i do i just cant comprehend
i'm fucked up
i fuck people up
i fuck everything up
i just need to get away by myself for a while
i think i will