forgetting everything

[confused415]

this last week monday to monday i am forgetting, escpecially thursday through sunday and the arguements ive had with dave. its all really hazy the friday-sunday, but i know i dont want to remember ya know, trying to push it away, get it out of my head...out of my mind! This weekend im going to party, but not as hard, theres going to be a lil get together for samantha with us and her and the homies. ya know..its my girls birthday live it up! and then saturday im going to MIkes house he invited me saturday, i hope that Bryan and Steve go, Bryan is...well Bryan and Steve was a really funnie guy. umm it should be off the hook, in the mean time, jAke-O's gotta look for a job...but im being lazy and gay and i think its too cold to walk around the city of roseville and look for a fucking job, F** that! Ya know i wouldnt mind being a tele marketer and talking on the phones all the day long...it might be hella hype. i love tlaking to them on the other end of the phone why not be on the end giving the service? how old do you have to be to do that? maybee i can do the whole 1900 number thing...or be a stripper...something easy and fun, just until i ge through school you know!

i wish life was alot easier, i know everyone does, but i just want some rich man to take me in and take care of me no strings attached until i get done with school and still let me live life, not be my parent just my care giver, thatd be nice. i deserve it, im nice, beautiful, a caring person, strong willed, and blah blah blah. im the boy cinderella, and one day a prince charming will take me away to his castle and love me, and take care of me, and show me the world be cause i deserve it.. i just gotta be patient...

i hope thats all it takes!