well today sucked.
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yee and u know it..(if they made a 'your not smart at all as a matter of fact your a fucking IDIOT' i bet me and cam wuld get it LOL)
today pretty much...sucked. my mom woke me up like @ 10 to go 2 my gmaz house (n note i was up till like 3 in the morning last nite hoping dave wuld sign on..he didn't) n so i was like tired so i got here and lied in my bed for like a hour n a half but culdnt fall asleep so i get online and natalie has a message from dave 'he said hes going to be at a cousins in ohio for the weekend n that he'll miss u n try to get aline' well okay i check my email and he send me a email:
Hey Im going to my cousins house for the weekend so i will try to get on over there! Im sorry to have missed you but I have to pack! Hopefuly ttyl! bye
Dave (kouquilruwewioewiue)
aw hez sweet... that weird k thing made me laugh for like 10 min(He was trying to spelled kikoquiki..i renamed him that..long story dont ask) n stuff n like..apparently he was on 20 min b4 i signed on and i was like DAMMIT cuz if i hadnt beena lazy ass i coulda talked to him..well i replied to his email u know saying i'm going to my dadz dis wekend so i'm not going to be there on saturday n try to enjoy the weekend with the cuzins n i kno natalie said he'd be in ohio..well where natalie got ohio who knowz but hes not in ohio..his cuzins are a 4 hour drive away LOL but see how do i know this? see i took a nap like @ 3 and woke up @ 5..guess who sent me a email @ 4:30?!?! thats right!! dave!! well w/e..he said he'd try to get on..if he did he should be there now..he'd proley get ther around 9 or sumthing.. well itz almost 11..lol stalkeratzie i know...
well today just..sucked i was all bleh and felt like talking to someone but didn't..and like my throat feels weird i think i've been having a over dose of dairy products but w/e.. n like auno..i just dont feel good.. n like i try writing songs, when i write its like letting my heart out in a way...and it helps me realize whats wrong with me because i dont think when i write them i just write..and then everyone is liek *gASP ASHLEY THATS GOOD* i'm like w/e.. i dont show them to ppl nemor.. (Especially since a poem i wrote is going into a fucking book..did they ask me? NO just stick a piece of me in a book SEE HOW MUCH I CARE!! dammit) cuz like..then other ppl go "can i see 1 of your songs?" n like i dont write storiez nemor either..i wrote one once cuz joc wanted me to(she likes the way i write) n then she'd like show it to everyone.. n i dont like that..i dont like ppl seeing what i write..even i put other characters names its still how i feel in a way... if i dont show you i dont want you to read it. ya kno?? like i wrote one about a grl who was in a coma and woke up not remembering ANYTHING so she goes to school and she has no idea who she is who her friends are..you know and in a way thats how i feel..i feel like i dont know who i am..i dont know who my friends are..i dont know whats happening to me who ilike wahts going on ya kno? and like..i almost put it on quizilla for ppl to read(like neone would) but then i was like 'no' cuz like..just no.. arthygaththryhsh gosh i dont feel good.. i just..don't.. i hate it i feel like i dont know myself who am i who are my friends what do i like ya kno? i can't figure me out and i can'tsolve the problem if i dont even know what the problem is! sometimes i just want to go to sleep and wake up when something good is hapening to me...when school starts so i'll HAVE something yak no? i'll see my friends i can complain about uniform i can wake up early put on makeup do things that make me happy you know? feel pretty and not look in the mirror and see the ugly monster that just woke up and got on the computer..you know? just..*Sigh* w/e im out..