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Tommy's moving to Florida. Think of how much better I'll feel with a whole bunch of states in between us. Actually I'll feel like shit because I still don't know the truth about anything. Oh well. I want my underwear back. I always do that though. I did it to Andy. After we broke up I asked to get a whole bunch of my stuff back. *shrug* It was mine.
Greg. My focus just of late. 21 days left. Argh, I'm nervous. He scared me over the weekend. I just want to be held by him, loved by him. Right now we love each other as much as we can with only a computer to keep us together. He lives in a different country. Sweet moon, it's going to kill me when he leaves again. If we hit it off the way I think we're going to. I need us to hit it off. I have to know that someone as amazing as him could possibly care about me.
People who have been reading this journal from the start have seen me with 2 people. I was in love with both of those people, and I still love them both. I'm still hurting from both... I just hope that one of these days, I'll feel stronger about someone than I did for those two, and that person won't hurt me. I'll have one person to write about for the rest of my life...
I will be writing for the rest of my life, I love it too much to give it up. It helps me so much.
OMFG!!! I found a calender the other day at the mall that's completely SPIKE!!! Ben's getting it for me for Christmas, I can't beleive I have to wait that long. I'll tell you one thing, the year 2004 is going to be a great one. ^_^
I think that's all I have to report for now, hopefully I'll be able to post again soon. I wish that I had a decent computer and my own phone line so I can post 10,000 times a day like I used to. But I don't have as much to write about lately. Nothing is really wrong, I'm getting along with my mother. But I'm just so unhappy and so empty lately. Just because I want to be with somebody. I want to be in love. That'll fill that hole better than the drugs. Really getting tired of it all.
So that's that.
Oh, by the way... I really want my history teacher and I don't know why... but oh my god...
Greg. My focus just of late. 21 days left. Argh, I'm nervous. He scared me over the weekend. I just want to be held by him, loved by him. Right now we love each other as much as we can with only a computer to keep us together. He lives in a different country. Sweet moon, it's going to kill me when he leaves again. If we hit it off the way I think we're going to. I need us to hit it off. I have to know that someone as amazing as him could possibly care about me.
People who have been reading this journal from the start have seen me with 2 people. I was in love with both of those people, and I still love them both. I'm still hurting from both... I just hope that one of these days, I'll feel stronger about someone than I did for those two, and that person won't hurt me. I'll have one person to write about for the rest of my life...
I will be writing for the rest of my life, I love it too much to give it up. It helps me so much.
OMFG!!! I found a calender the other day at the mall that's completely SPIKE!!! Ben's getting it for me for Christmas, I can't beleive I have to wait that long. I'll tell you one thing, the year 2004 is going to be a great one. ^_^
I think that's all I have to report for now, hopefully I'll be able to post again soon. I wish that I had a decent computer and my own phone line so I can post 10,000 times a day like I used to. But I don't have as much to write about lately. Nothing is really wrong, I'm getting along with my mother. But I'm just so unhappy and so empty lately. Just because I want to be with somebody. I want to be in love. That'll fill that hole better than the drugs. Really getting tired of it all.
So that's that.
Oh, by the way... I really want my history teacher and I don't know why... but oh my god...