i feel horrible
so lately i feel really stressed and anxious and just on the verge of some sort of breakdown and it happens in small bursts.
i start sobbing and crtying and hyperventilating all in one and then it just breaks and i start to shiver and then i cant stop crying
i really wonder if me andgar can work these days.
i used to be so...confident of the idea that even though he is only the second person i dated it could still work just because i love him and he loves me and it can happen. But now i feel like reality has come in and i think to myself " your supposed to date many ppl to decide what you want or need and then decide. then after 10 or so ppl you find 'the one' what a stupid thing to believe in." But i cant deny that i do love him, we're just having some problems right now that we need to work through, and those problems get magnified with this stress, which puts even more strain on an already strained long distance relationship that is normally wonderful but difficult with the distance.
so heres my plan...
im going to talk to him less frequently
lets say every other day or more space in between
hopefully he wont loose interest in me through this less talking thing, but i cant think of what else to do to take the stress off our relationship.
i start sobbing and crtying and hyperventilating all in one and then it just breaks and i start to shiver and then i cant stop crying
i really wonder if me andgar can work these days.
i used to be so...confident of the idea that even though he is only the second person i dated it could still work just because i love him and he loves me and it can happen. But now i feel like reality has come in and i think to myself " your supposed to date many ppl to decide what you want or need and then decide. then after 10 or so ppl you find 'the one' what a stupid thing to believe in." But i cant deny that i do love him, we're just having some problems right now that we need to work through, and those problems get magnified with this stress, which puts even more strain on an already strained long distance relationship that is normally wonderful but difficult with the distance.
so heres my plan...
im going to talk to him less frequently
lets say every other day or more space in between
hopefully he wont loose interest in me through this less talking thing, but i cant think of what else to do to take the stress off our relationship.