Roller derby, one month later
Roller derby has taken over my life, in a very good way.
In the month since my first practice I've gone to several more practices, bought my own skates and just recently bought the rest of my own protective gear so I won't have to borrow from others anymore. I went out drinking one night with the rest of my team and had a great time, and I think I'm doing the same again tomorrow. I really feel like almost all of these people are becoming my friends and I have a tremendous amount of loyalty to the team already.
However, I still stink on skates. I'm progressing, but incredibly slowly. It's discouraging to me sometimes just how slowly I'm progressing and I'm embarrassed by it. Frankly, there have been several times that I was tempted to give up. If it weren't for the fact that I really want to succeed at this, I would have given up already.
I think of myself as being like the little engine that could, saying "I think I can, I think I can." You know how some people ask questions like what would you do if you knew you could not fail? This is definitely in that category for me.
This is the hardest thing I've ever done and I face my fears every time I put on the skates. I'm terrified of getting hurt, mostly because my health insurance is so terrible, even though I think that fear is also hindering my progress. But the rewards of this are great enough that it's worth confronting my fears.
In the month since my first practice I've gone to several more practices, bought my own skates and just recently bought the rest of my own protective gear so I won't have to borrow from others anymore. I went out drinking one night with the rest of my team and had a great time, and I think I'm doing the same again tomorrow. I really feel like almost all of these people are becoming my friends and I have a tremendous amount of loyalty to the team already.
However, I still stink on skates. I'm progressing, but incredibly slowly. It's discouraging to me sometimes just how slowly I'm progressing and I'm embarrassed by it. Frankly, there have been several times that I was tempted to give up. If it weren't for the fact that I really want to succeed at this, I would have given up already.
I think of myself as being like the little engine that could, saying "I think I can, I think I can." You know how some people ask questions like what would you do if you knew you could not fail? This is definitely in that category for me.
This is the hardest thing I've ever done and I face my fears every time I put on the skates. I'm terrified of getting hurt, mostly because my health insurance is so terrible, even though I think that fear is also hindering my progress. But the rewards of this are great enough that it's worth confronting my fears.