we are nowhere and it's now
My anxiety level has been pretty high, as I mentioned. I was freaking out pretty hard and finally decided I would go to the perpetual adoration chapel. It's basically no church service at all, you just sit there in silence. It was my first time doing it but I thought it might help and it did. I sat there for over an hour, mostly just crying, but I felt like a weight had been lifted from me by the time I left.
I normally make fun of people who say God talks to them. When George W Bush said God talked to him I thought it was fake - still do - and that it was a ploy to make people believe he was more devout. After all, I really can't imagine that God would ever tell anyone to engage in pre-emptive war.
But anyway, I was sitting there in silent prayer and I just kind of thought, "why is everything so hard?"
And I swear I got an answer: "It isn't."
Whether that answer came from God or my subconscious, it was both so simple and yet so profound. But seeing as how in the past week I have read about local children dying in horrible ways, the fact that we don't have enough money to pay our student loans and J's trying to find a job that would enable us to do so really just doesn't compare. Debt you can't repay is scary but that's all it is. At least for now you can't throw me in jail for not being able to pay them. We're alive, we have our health, we have shelter. In comparison to not having those things, it really isn't that hard.
Here, watch a beautiful video:
I normally make fun of people who say God talks to them. When George W Bush said God talked to him I thought it was fake - still do - and that it was a ploy to make people believe he was more devout. After all, I really can't imagine that God would ever tell anyone to engage in pre-emptive war.
But anyway, I was sitting there in silent prayer and I just kind of thought, "why is everything so hard?"
And I swear I got an answer: "It isn't."
Whether that answer came from God or my subconscious, it was both so simple and yet so profound. But seeing as how in the past week I have read about local children dying in horrible ways, the fact that we don't have enough money to pay our student loans and J's trying to find a job that would enable us to do so really just doesn't compare. Debt you can't repay is scary but that's all it is. At least for now you can't throw me in jail for not being able to pay them. We're alive, we have our health, we have shelter. In comparison to not having those things, it really isn't that hard.
Here, watch a beautiful video:
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