All i want for christmas is you..
which I received...
I invited aaron over for lobstahs with my parents. it went awesome. mum said he kept starring at me all night. le sigh. then he left and went to his grams. and then came back after. we watched ice age 2. then had an INCREDIBLE evening. our kisses were so passionate. our sex was by far MIND BLOWING. i've never been able to feel someone acutally miss me. and i did that night. i fell asleep in his arms and awoke in his arms. he was supposed to leave at 8:30. didn't leave my house untill 11:00am! It was great. I don't have my hopes up or anything but it's all i wanted for christmas. i told him that i can hang out with him and leave it at that. and he asked me if i said that same thing would you believe me. and i said no. lol. we mentioned that we've attempted dating. and there just wasn't anything there. i'd love to be with him. but i'm scared. as is he. but i feel in time. we could end up together.
aside from that. i lost a really close friend this week. on christmas morning. Leah's mom passed away. and I have to attend the wake and funeral and i'm getting hot flashes just thinking about it. i see myself just standing outside. this is MY HUGEST FEAR. i've never lost anyone close to me. the last words her mom said to me was "take care of my daughter, i'm counting on you" classic i know. but the girl has no parents. who will ever walk her down the isle? I can't find the words to say that things will be okay. she's never going to be able to celebrate christmas the same way. she'll never had her mom. and shes never had her dad. how does one live life without those. she has the strongest soul i've ever met.
well i just took all my christmas decorations down. much happier : D excited for new years. i changed my mind about skiing. i'm going to wait until the slopes are better. and colleen needs a best friend more then i need that kiss. well i'm off to BullMoosey. <3
I invited aaron over for lobstahs with my parents. it went awesome. mum said he kept starring at me all night. le sigh. then he left and went to his grams. and then came back after. we watched ice age 2. then had an INCREDIBLE evening. our kisses were so passionate. our sex was by far MIND BLOWING. i've never been able to feel someone acutally miss me. and i did that night. i fell asleep in his arms and awoke in his arms. he was supposed to leave at 8:30. didn't leave my house untill 11:00am! It was great. I don't have my hopes up or anything but it's all i wanted for christmas. i told him that i can hang out with him and leave it at that. and he asked me if i said that same thing would you believe me. and i said no. lol. we mentioned that we've attempted dating. and there just wasn't anything there. i'd love to be with him. but i'm scared. as is he. but i feel in time. we could end up together.
aside from that. i lost a really close friend this week. on christmas morning. Leah's mom passed away. and I have to attend the wake and funeral and i'm getting hot flashes just thinking about it. i see myself just standing outside. this is MY HUGEST FEAR. i've never lost anyone close to me. the last words her mom said to me was "take care of my daughter, i'm counting on you" classic i know. but the girl has no parents. who will ever walk her down the isle? I can't find the words to say that things will be okay. she's never going to be able to celebrate christmas the same way. she'll never had her mom. and shes never had her dad. how does one live life without those. she has the strongest soul i've ever met.
well i just took all my christmas decorations down. much happier : D excited for new years. i changed my mind about skiing. i'm going to wait until the slopes are better. and colleen needs a best friend more then i need that kiss. well i'm off to BullMoosey. <3