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so today was carolyn's birthday. i stayed up all night. stopped by eriks then fell asleep missing most of school again. after class me and erik went over and hung out with them. then back here to watch brokedown palace. i am happy right now. but lonely. i love my friends. they are great. i wish we all got along better. so tomorrow is school. wait what is this feeling? am i actually excited for class, or is it just gas? na na na na na your balls are showing. nothing is better then being naked. i miss my philly friends from clubs. i should go. but i am poor. christmas comes but once a year. 5 am. still no sleep. i hope i don't get sick. everyone is sick. i'm worried about someone cause i know that they are upset and i hope they are feeling better, u know who you are. should i watch addam's family, my cousin vinny, attempt sleep? i don't know. i want to start working out. i feel ugly. i'm to small. i want to be big. to match my tallness. i am having one of those moments where you look at yourself and can hardly hold yourself from vomiting cause you think is this really going to be the rest of my life? i did a brick perm in school today, i still can't dutch braid. Walmart is having a sale are car things. i need to get money. i need an air freshner. i remember this one time when i was little and one of my cousins got a perfect tree house. with carpet, windows, fans, everything his own little house. so my step grandfather made me a shitty one out of sparewood and a tree on the ground. everyone still chose to hang out in mine. i wonder if i built a good tree house and a bad tree house today would everyone still want to be around me that much. i'm really not sure. i miss my pop-pop.