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so ben likes someother girl. he wants to have sex with her. he told me. and i cried. why? WHY THE FUCK AM I CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i "hate" him... or do i...
maybe i still like him alot... or maybe i just want to to be the only girl he ever likes again. well i know he must still like me cuz he still hangs out with me and tries to get with me all the time.
and i really shouldnt care since im sorta dating like 3 people right now... bah! why do i care?
except... the other day right when i woke up the 1st thought in my head was that i was probably going to end up marrying him... which i dont think would be all that bad except for the huge fights we have every now and then. but i really love hooking up with him. he is such a great hook up and so fun. GREAT kisser and he respects my morals that i have. and he always makes me laugh and he is probably lying about half the stuff he just said just to make me upset he does this all the time why am i freaking out he is mroe than 50% sure lying about all of it cuz he knew it would piss me off and i told him i went on a date sorta thing last night anyway i just want to know why the fuck i am crying.... WHY AM I CRYING ABOUT ALL OF THIS STUPID SHIT! FUCK
i dont like being upset like this... where the fuck did depressed meg come from... WHY THE FUCK AM I SO UPSET!?!
i know why... cuz that is one more person who seems to have found someone else that they coudl really care about... and its not me and i still have no foudn anyone... everyone falls short... damn it all.. i need to go shopping or i need to get drunk as fuck right now and then go to fiesta... but im too lazy to re-do my hair and to put on a cute outfit since i did not buy one for the fiesta weekend cuz i thought i would be at work the whole time but now i am not going to lame ass el torito... FUCK THAT PLACE!
IM IN A CLASS CASE OF EMOTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
poop and a half... im over it... sorta... but not really
RACHEL PLEASE COME BACK TO ME PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSE
maybe i should start having sex...
fuck relationships... its time to start being a boy when it comes to all that shit... time to start playing the field...
"im a playa mother fucker and i bet i never change!"
i "hate" him... or do i...
maybe i still like him alot... or maybe i just want to to be the only girl he ever likes again. well i know he must still like me cuz he still hangs out with me and tries to get with me all the time.
and i really shouldnt care since im sorta dating like 3 people right now... bah! why do i care?
except... the other day right when i woke up the 1st thought in my head was that i was probably going to end up marrying him... which i dont think would be all that bad except for the huge fights we have every now and then. but i really love hooking up with him. he is such a great hook up and so fun. GREAT kisser and he respects my morals that i have. and he always makes me laugh and he is probably lying about half the stuff he just said just to make me upset he does this all the time why am i freaking out he is mroe than 50% sure lying about all of it cuz he knew it would piss me off and i told him i went on a date sorta thing last night anyway i just want to know why the fuck i am crying.... WHY AM I CRYING ABOUT ALL OF THIS STUPID SHIT! FUCK
i dont like being upset like this... where the fuck did depressed meg come from... WHY THE FUCK AM I SO UPSET!?!
i know why... cuz that is one more person who seems to have found someone else that they coudl really care about... and its not me and i still have no foudn anyone... everyone falls short... damn it all.. i need to go shopping or i need to get drunk as fuck right now and then go to fiesta... but im too lazy to re-do my hair and to put on a cute outfit since i did not buy one for the fiesta weekend cuz i thought i would be at work the whole time but now i am not going to lame ass el torito... FUCK THAT PLACE!
IM IN A CLASS CASE OF EMOTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
poop and a half... im over it... sorta... but not really
RACHEL PLEASE COME BACK TO ME PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSE
maybe i should start having sex...
fuck relationships... its time to start being a boy when it comes to all that shit... time to start playing the field...
"im a playa mother fucker and i bet i never change!"