Ambivilent
I'm swimming in uncertainty. I'm not sure what to do. Should I stay or should I go. I know I want to go...but y? my reasons suck. No they don't, they are perfectly valid...your reasons suck. They aren't good enough. This is a decision that I have to make. I'm not a child. Yes I am. But I am old enough to make my own decisions right? Am I? I don't know. I think so...I feel strong enough...but I feel like a child. I feel little...I feel weak...but I feel ambitious...is that perhaps what you lack? No..your just scared. You don't want me pulled away right between your fingertips. Maybe you don't think I"m ready...maybe I'm not...but you won't let me go to find out. You want me to stay for you...for everyone..its easier on everyone if I stay...You're all freakin selfish...or am I. Perhaps. Perhaps I am selfish and I'm only thinking of myslef....but isn't that what I do least...think about myslef...I put people first all the time...and I like it...yea thats right I love it...so why do i feel so bad putting myself first for once...cuz of him...i'm gonna miss him the most...and thats probably the only reason I'd stay...God help me.