Saddness.
I feel really bad because I gave Daniel a hard time about not spending time with me tonight and then he called saying he was going over to Roger's and he just wanted to tell me so I wouldn't get mad. There is no reason at all that I should be making him feel like he has to check in with me. It saddens me that I am making him feel that way, because that means I am not doing my job right. I love him very much I just sometimes do very stupid things and I guess this is one of them.
I just feel very lonely lately but that isn't his fault, so I have to stop taking it out on him. I'll have to apologize tomorrow in class when I see him.
I do not know what my problem is. I just keep fucking things up for him and REALLY don't mean to. I cannot love him right, give him the right amount of love at the right time. I cannot even make love to him properly. I don't know what I am doing so wrong, I just want to make him a happy man like he makes me happy but I am just too stupid to do it, I guess.
I just feel very lonely lately but that isn't his fault, so I have to stop taking it out on him. I'll have to apologize tomorrow in class when I see him.
I do not know what my problem is. I just keep fucking things up for him and REALLY don't mean to. I cannot love him right, give him the right amount of love at the right time. I cannot even make love to him properly. I don't know what I am doing so wrong, I just want to make him a happy man like he makes me happy but I am just too stupid to do it, I guess.