at the risk of quoting way too much from this fic i'll just go with my favorites which is kind of everything but must practice self restraint
The day Junhwe dies starts out like any other. like wow right after i read this i was 99% sure i was gonna like it, i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound
“Ugh,” Junhwe says, after a beat. “You were right. You really are gross.” He shifts against Jinhwan’s back, and Jinhwan is sure three showers won’t get rid of the feeling of his soggy t-shirt moving between them. “Junhwe…” “So gross,” Junhwe continues. “That I need a shower. Immediately. Like, right now.” SIR YOU ARE SO TRANSPARENT SIT DOWN
Jinhwan can barely get the words out. “Are you here to save Junhwe, too?” Yunhyeong had been one of the most easygoing guys Jinhwan had known in university- always smiling, always trying to make the best of any given situation. Right now, all traces of humour are gone from his eyes. Jinhwan has never seen him look more serious. “No,” Yunhyeong says. “I’m here to save you.” THIS IS WHEN MY HEART DROPPED EVEN FURTHER DOWN THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD
“So pretend you’re on a yacht,” Bobby is saying, his chopsticks pointed at Junhwe. “With Jinhwan, your mother, your, uh, roommate, and… Hanbin. And then, by some crazy stroke of misfortune, all four of them fall overboard at the same time. Who do you jump in and save first?” “I can’t swim,” Junhwe says. Bobby looks briefly disappointed, before the grin finds its way back onto his face. “Hypothetically, though? I mean, you’re not just going to stand there. You can have a life buoy, if you want. Just one.” “Fine,” Junhwe fidgets in his seat. “Jinhwan, then.” Bobby looks alarmed. “You’re not going to save your mom?” “She can swim,” Junhwe argues. “Really well. I know she can.” “Hanbin,” interjects Hanbin. “The right answer is Hanbin.” “But you don’t know if Jinhwan can swim?” Bobby asks, incredulous. “Do you even know Jinhwan’s last name?” omf hanbin you are such a shithead but??? this is so accurate lemme just
Jinhwan can barely breathe. And that’s when he realises he’d been wrong all along. Carelessness, negligence, the electrical setup, the liquid, the spark- They’d all been ingredients in the whole disaster, but none one of them had caused the accident. He’d caused the accident omg omg omg omg this was just oh god why
Junhwe’s hand is gripped tightly in his. Jinhwan feels the world being ripped apart around him, and then everything goes white. OKAY SO AT LEAST THEY DIED TOGETHER RIGHT
The boy nods again, surprised. “Come on,” Jinhwan says. “Let’s go, before the next train gets here.” As he turns, he hears the boy mutter something behind him. Jinhwan only catches the words do-over. “If only it were possible,” Jinhwan says, without really thinking. “It could be possible,” the boy mumbles. “Someday.” Jinhwan stops in his tracks, turning and thrusting his hand out at the boy. “Speaking of which,” he says. “I’m Jinhwan. Kim Jinhwan. Nice to meet you.” Once again, the boy looks taken aback. But he reaches out, takes Jinhwan’s hand firmly in his. A slow smile spreads across his face. It’s a nice smile. “Junhwe,” he says. “Koo Junhwe.” fffffUUUUUUU
BUT WOW THIS HURT ME ON SO MANY LEVELS BUT IN A VERY GOOD AND VERY BAD WAY AND I NEED TO NOT TYPE IN CAPS A+ how to write like this. your characterizations were so on point and random yunhyeong threw me for a loop but then it made so much sense?? the back and forth also thew me a bit but then it just made so much sense and dear god junhwan angst makes me happy which is weird but yes i thank you v much for writing this
i should sleep lol but pls don't mind me being awkward and asking if you have a twitter or smth lol i'm attempting to find fandom friends if you don't mind that sort of thing
Oh, wow. Thank you for such a long and kind comment, I'm really glad to hear the fic worked for you and that you were affected by it!! Two of the parts you mention -- where yunhyeong tells jinhwan he's travelled back to save him, and where jinhwan realises he caused the accident -- were ones I really hoped would make an ~impact~ (I suppose it helps that they each end their respective sections), so I'm happy you picked them out! i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound I wonder what this makes me for writing this monster... u__u
The mess of a dinner slash interrogation scene was something I worried about (is it too much?? is this how they'd act?? what's happening??), so it means a lot that you found it realistic/accurate! And junhwe being a complete Teenage Boy even when he's not is...eternal tbh. Is dying together any sort of consolation? ;; I've so far ended up feeling pretty apologetic reading the comments I've gotten but your dear god junhwan angst makes me happy !!! BUT I'M GLAD YOU'RE HAPPY
And omg no that's not awkward at all, I'm @partypoops on twitter! I would love to make some fandom friends n__n
it's no problem at all!! it was so good and also incredibly long so therefore long comment is necessary. this is the part where i attempt to break out one of those math properties but i didn't do so well in math, so there goes that
ngl junhwe will probably be Teenage Boy forever, like i imagine him being a cranky old man arguing with his teenage grandkids and his maturity level will be no higher, or something like that lol
i guess i'm a bit of an oddity in that angst fics are my favorite to read lol is it bad that i feel like every otp needs a really good fic where someone dies
my twitter is @ loverikonic ^^ i don't have a lot of fandom friends (read: zero) so... a ha ha. apologies in advance??
at the risk of quoting way too much from this fic i'll just go with my favorites which is kind of everything but must practice self restraint
The day Junhwe dies starts out like any other. like wow right after i read this i was 99% sure i was gonna like it, i am such a sucker for those sorts of fics as sadistic as that may make me sound
“Ugh,” Junhwe says, after a beat. “You were right. You really are gross.”
He shifts against Jinhwan’s back, and Jinhwan is sure three showers won’t get rid of the feeling of his soggy t-shirt moving between them. “Junhwe…”
“So gross,” Junhwe continues. “That I need a shower. Immediately. Like, right now.” SIR YOU ARE SO TRANSPARENT SIT DOWN
Jinhwan can barely get the words out. “Are you here to save Junhwe, too?”
Yunhyeong had been one of the most easygoing guys Jinhwan had known in university- always smiling, always trying to make the best of any given situation. Right now, all traces of humour are gone from his eyes. Jinhwan has never seen him look more serious.
“No,” Yunhyeong says. “I’m here to save you.” THIS IS WHEN MY HEART DROPPED EVEN FURTHER DOWN THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD
“So pretend you’re on a yacht,” Bobby is saying, his chopsticks pointed at Junhwe. “With Jinhwan, your mother, your, uh, roommate, and… Hanbin. And then, by some crazy stroke of misfortune, all four of them fall overboard at the same time. Who do you jump in and save first?”
“I can’t swim,” Junhwe says.
Bobby looks briefly disappointed, before the grin finds its way back onto his face. “Hypothetically, though? I mean, you’re not just going to stand there. You can have a life buoy, if you want. Just one.”
“Fine,” Junhwe fidgets in his seat. “Jinhwan, then.”
Bobby looks alarmed. “You’re not going to save your mom?”
“She can swim,” Junhwe argues. “Really well. I know she can.”
“Hanbin,” interjects Hanbin. “The right answer is Hanbin.”
“But you don’t know if Jinhwan can swim?” Bobby asks, incredulous. “Do you even know Jinhwan’s last name?” omf hanbin you are such a shithead but??? this is so accurate lemme just
Jinhwan can barely breathe. And that’s when he realises he’d been wrong all along. Carelessness, negligence, the electrical setup, the liquid, the spark- They’d all been ingredients in the whole disaster, but none one of them had caused the accident.
He’d caused the accident omg omg omg omg this was just oh god why
Junhwe’s hand is gripped tightly in his. Jinhwan feels the world being ripped apart around him, and then everything goes white. OKAY SO AT LEAST THEY DIED TOGETHER RIGHT
The boy nods again, surprised. “Come on,” Jinhwan says. “Let’s go, before the next train gets here.” As he turns, he hears the boy mutter something behind him. Jinhwan only catches the words do-over.
“If only it were possible,” Jinhwan says, without really thinking.
“It could be possible,” the boy mumbles. “Someday.”
Jinhwan stops in his tracks, turning and thrusting his hand out at the boy. “Speaking of which,” he says. “I’m Jinhwan. Kim Jinhwan. Nice to meet you.”
Once again, the boy looks taken aback. But he reaches out, takes Jinhwan’s hand firmly in his. A slow smile spreads across his face. It’s a nice smile.
“Junhwe,” he says. “Koo Junhwe.” fffffUUUUUUU
BUT WOW THIS HURT ME ON SO MANY LEVELS BUT IN A VERY GOOD AND VERY BAD WAY AND I NEED TO NOT TYPE IN CAPS A+ how to write like this. your characterizations were so on point and random yunhyeong threw me for a loop but then it made so much sense?? the back and forth also thew me a bit but then it just made so much sense and dear god junhwan angst makes me happy which is weird but yes i thank you v much for writing this
i should sleep lol but pls don't mind me being awkward and asking if you have a twitter or smth lol i'm attempting to find fandom friends if you don't mind that sort of thing
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The mess of a dinner slash interrogation scene was something I worried about (is it too much?? is this how they'd act?? what's happening??), so it means a lot that you found it realistic/accurate! And junhwe being a complete Teenage Boy even when he's not is...eternal tbh. Is dying together any sort of consolation? ;; I've so far ended up feeling pretty apologetic reading the comments I've gotten but your dear god junhwan angst makes me happy !!! BUT I'M GLAD YOU'RE HAPPY
And omg no that's not awkward at all, I'm @partypoops on twitter! I would love to make some fandom friends n__n
Thank you again for reading and commenting!!!
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ngl junhwe will probably be Teenage Boy forever, like i imagine him being a cranky old man arguing with his teenage grandkids and his maturity level will be no higher, or something like that lol
i guess i'm a bit of an oddity in that angst fics are my favorite to read lol is it bad that i feel like every otp needs a really good fic where someone dies
my twitter is @ loverikonic ^^ i don't have a lot of fandom friends (read: zero) so... a ha ha. apologies in advance??
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