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Jason took a job in San Francisco and moved away a week ago. I'm really angry with him. He doesn't call me, I am suddenly just another facebook friend. He posts links to my wall once in awhile. I am very alone and lonely. He had talked about going to Spain for a year to teach English and I knew he wanted to live in the Bay Area but at first it wasn't a big deal because I wasn't attached yet, and when I started getting attached it looked like he wasn't going to have the opportunity to do those things anytime soon. Then within the span of a few days he told me he'd applied for this job, and he got an interview, and actually got the offer. And then he moved and forgot about me in the same moment. He just talks about his plans all the time, how he is going to ride his bike to this place, drive out to Santa Cruz this weekend. Of course he doesn't ask how I'm doing. I'm not supposed to be mad because he was always honest about wanting to move. It feels like our whole relationship was not real to him, just a way to keep busy until he got what he wanted. I called him crying and we talked, he said he would call me back that night and then he didn't. He says because he crashed when he got home. Honestly I'm not a priority. Why would I be, when he has so many fun things he can prioritize instead now that he is living where he wants to live with his friends. I just didn't think he would abandon me the same way Matt did, I thought he cared about me.