No News
I was trying to think of a good way to respond to the questions I received about the previous entry and this blast from the lj past hit me.
"Of all the ridiculous expressions people use - and people use a great many ridiculous expressions - one of the most ridiculous is 'No news is good news'. 'No news is good news' simply means that if you don't hear from someone, everything is probably fine, and you can see at once why this expression makes such little sense, because everything being fine is only one of many, many reasons why someone many not contact you. Perhaps they are tied up. Maybe they are surrounded by fierce weasels, or perhaps they are wedged tightly between two refrigerators and cannot get themselves out. The expression might as well be 'No news is bad news' except that people may not be able to contact you because they have been crowned king or are competing in a gymnastics tournament. The point is that there is no way to know why someone has not contacted you, until they contact you and explain themselves. For this reason, the sensible expression would be 'No news is no news,' except that it is so obvious that it is hardly and expression at all."
-Lemony Snicket from the Hostile Hospital
So, I regret writing about my current health problem on the internet, but at the time, I needed to vent about it without calling someone up and saying, "Hey, how are you?... Great!... Me? Oh, well, not much. I might have cancer, though." It was a silly way of going about it that probably fulfilled some stupid subconsious need for sympathy or attention or whatever. Oh well.
Basically, the doctor didn't do a biopsy because she thinks that it probably isn't cancer. So, I'm going to wait three months and see if there are any changes, get an ultrasound, maybe get a biopsy, maybe get the lumps removed... I dunno. No news I guess. I kind of feel like I'm wedged tightly between two refrigerators on this one, but maybe I'll just end up being crowned king.