twenty-eight
So, i suppose it's that time again.
But what can i really say that hasn't been said before? what can i really say to post on an internet blogging tool? How far can i go? How real can i be? And while Im there how can you tell? I feel something, but then i lie about it, essentially lying to myself,and that's bad and i know it, so i lie again to cover it up. Lies ontop of lies ontop of lies until i don't know what the truth is anymore. I can't say how i feel-i don't know. Or am i just not allowing myslef to know? Or do i know but I'm just not typing it down here? I don't know what's going on with anything- it's all been going insane. Like i said earlier -rollercoaster. Well, i wasn't planning on this, but here comes the lesson, in the same style i always use becasue I'm crap like that and this is the style I've gotton comfortable with- I'll try to find a new one soon. who am i kidding? It's not like anyone cares its not like anyone takes this seriously. Why should you? Who knows if I'm telling the truth or not? I don't even know. Never mind,just deal with the style I've been using. Fuck that, i don't feels like writing. this is such a waste.
okay, I'm going to go drown myself in music to cheer me up.
But what can i really say that hasn't been said before? what can i really say to post on an internet blogging tool? How far can i go? How real can i be? And while Im there how can you tell? I feel something, but then i lie about it, essentially lying to myself,and that's bad and i know it, so i lie again to cover it up. Lies ontop of lies ontop of lies until i don't know what the truth is anymore. I can't say how i feel-i don't know. Or am i just not allowing myslef to know? Or do i know but I'm just not typing it down here? I don't know what's going on with anything- it's all been going insane. Like i said earlier -rollercoaster. Well, i wasn't planning on this, but here comes the lesson, in the same style i always use becasue I'm crap like that and this is the style I've gotton comfortable with- I'll try to find a new one soon. who am i kidding? It's not like anyone cares its not like anyone takes this seriously. Why should you? Who knows if I'm telling the truth or not? I don't even know. Never mind,just deal with the style I've been using. Fuck that, i don't feels like writing. this is such a waste.
okay, I'm going to go drown myself in music to cheer me up.