I wish I felt like my icon..
I've spent the last two weeks smiling my fool head off. Happy as I could be, falling head over heels in love.
Once again, I've had it jerked out from under me.
Sometimes, I really think the universe exposes me to what I really want, just so it can fuck with me and make it all go away while I'm left in the shattered remains of my happiness.
Perhaps if my heart breaks enough, it will harden to the point of not falling in love again.
Not sure if I want that or not.
There is hope that this will just be a blip. But hope is a cruel evil trick that the gods use to destroy our souls.
Maybe I should just drink until I can't feel my skin.
Once again, I've had it jerked out from under me.
Sometimes, I really think the universe exposes me to what I really want, just so it can fuck with me and make it all go away while I'm left in the shattered remains of my happiness.
Perhaps if my heart breaks enough, it will harden to the point of not falling in love again.
Not sure if I want that or not.
There is hope that this will just be a blip. But hope is a cruel evil trick that the gods use to destroy our souls.
Maybe I should just drink until I can't feel my skin.