I hate you Phizer
It really sucks that even when I get drunk as I am, I cant feel emotion. You know what. Fuck you Welbutrin. Fuck you society that says I have to be happy all the time. Know what, shit happens. We all have different ways of dealing with it. Some, like me, get depressed about it. Apparently thats not "okay" according to society. We all have to be shiney happy fucking people when it comes to life. Well you know what "society" life isnt motherfucking perfect so fucking deal with it. I fucked up and I know I did. I hurt two people and I fucking hate myself for it. I have to drink to feel any of this. That sucks. Just give me my fucking adderall and I'll be fine. I dont need to be all happy all the time. I'm not even happy anyway, I'm just fucking numb. I cant even cry with this much alcohol in me. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. (And one for good luck) Fuck.