Stress
So all that work that I had to do this weekend. Yeah, that clearly all got done during the course of the day today. The little bit of work that I had tonight. Also, clearly getting done tomorrow. I'm so pathetic. When will I ever learn?
Two big tests tomorrow. Oh boy! Then we have Senior Seminar instead of classes on Wednesday. I still have to write the responses to the previous three seminars. They only have to be a page but I can't seem to get motivated to write them. Ugh. I have this terrible feeling about grades coming up. SATs are coming up in a week or two. I have to start getting my shit together for college apps. I have to survive. I have to keep my sanity.
We finished building the set today. Painting starts Wednesday. Oh yeah, which reminds me. I have to get my fuckin senior project lined up. When will it all go away? I just want it to go away. So I listened to Death Cab all day after school. I don't even like them that much.
I feel so souless. I feel like there is a giant cavity in my being. If one were to knock on my shell they'd hear an echo from inside. I feel so lonely even around people. I feel like destroying something but I know that I wouldn't have the energy to do it. Even if I did the destruction wouldn't help any. I just want to curl into a ball under my sheets and stay there forever.
Why can't I just say it? *slap slap slap* WHY?!
Two big tests tomorrow. Oh boy! Then we have Senior Seminar instead of classes on Wednesday. I still have to write the responses to the previous three seminars. They only have to be a page but I can't seem to get motivated to write them. Ugh. I have this terrible feeling about grades coming up. SATs are coming up in a week or two. I have to start getting my shit together for college apps. I have to survive. I have to keep my sanity.
We finished building the set today. Painting starts Wednesday. Oh yeah, which reminds me. I have to get my fuckin senior project lined up. When will it all go away? I just want it to go away. So I listened to Death Cab all day after school. I don't even like them that much.
I feel so souless. I feel like there is a giant cavity in my being. If one were to knock on my shell they'd hear an echo from inside. I feel so lonely even around people. I feel like destroying something but I know that I wouldn't have the energy to do it. Even if I did the destruction wouldn't help any. I just want to curl into a ball under my sheets and stay there forever.
Why can't I just say it? *slap slap slap* WHY?!