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im happy.
just....happy...and ok...and normal.
for the first time in so so long.
and i cant even explain how that feels.
im hoping that all things will work out soon.
I feel as if things are working themselves out.
and im scared to even let myself feel ok...because everytime i feel things working out something gets fucked up.
and then i hate myself for believing in anything.
but im trying so hard.
and no matter what...
what i feel is real.
im beginning to learn how to love life.
and thats all ive ever wanted.
just....happy...and ok...and normal.
for the first time in so so long.
and i cant even explain how that feels.
im hoping that all things will work out soon.
I feel as if things are working themselves out.
and im scared to even let myself feel ok...because everytime i feel things working out something gets fucked up.
and then i hate myself for believing in anything.
but im trying so hard.
and no matter what...
what i feel is real.
im beginning to learn how to love life.
and thats all ive ever wanted.