I hate myself.
This weekend wasnt the greatest ever.
I was so excited to go home.
My fault I fucked it up.
I dont know why I do these things.
I dont make any sense.
I was extremely happy to have seen kim though.
I missed her SO much all last week.
Shes the sweetest most amazing girl ever. Shed do anything for me.
So would I for her. Not that I do a very good job of showing it.
She doesnt deserve what I put her through. Not at all.
Now shes going to SC and I wont see her for weeks.
I already cant handle it and she doesnt even actually leave until friday.
I really wish I didnt hate myself. But I really do.
I wish there was something I could do.
Im so miserable.
Jesus no wonder everyone thinks Im so unhappy.
I just want to be able to sleep and lay in bed forever right now.
Too bad I have plenty of fucking work I should be doing.
Damn college.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I just want to scream and cry and freak out as loud as I can.
And break things alot. But I cant really do that.
Im SO frustrated with myself.
You are absolutely everything to me.
I wont stop until you know that...reguardless of whether it makes a dif or not.
I cant have you thinking I dont really love or care about you. It kills me.
I know the truth...one day I hope you will too.
I was so excited to go home.
My fault I fucked it up.
I dont know why I do these things.
I dont make any sense.
I was extremely happy to have seen kim though.
I missed her SO much all last week.
Shes the sweetest most amazing girl ever. Shed do anything for me.
So would I for her. Not that I do a very good job of showing it.
She doesnt deserve what I put her through. Not at all.
Now shes going to SC and I wont see her for weeks.
I already cant handle it and she doesnt even actually leave until friday.
I really wish I didnt hate myself. But I really do.
I wish there was something I could do.
Im so miserable.
Jesus no wonder everyone thinks Im so unhappy.
I just want to be able to sleep and lay in bed forever right now.
Too bad I have plenty of fucking work I should be doing.
Damn college.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I just want to scream and cry and freak out as loud as I can.
And break things alot. But I cant really do that.
Im SO frustrated with myself.
You are absolutely everything to me.
I wont stop until you know that...reguardless of whether it makes a dif or not.
I cant have you thinking I dont really love or care about you. It kills me.
I know the truth...one day I hope you will too.