What the fuck is wrong with my life?
I stayed at college this weekend.
I was fucked up the entire time.
Everything is a blur.
It was fun being fucked up, I remember laughing alot.
And eating WAY too much food.
I had fun with the friends I have here.
But I hurt the only person I love in the process.
I hurt her really bad.
Im an idiot.
I hate myself so much.
I should have just gone home like I originally wanted to.
I wanted to see you...so bad.
But I stayed.
I cant take it back, I cant make it better.
And it sucks more than anything!
Id do anything to make this better.
I fucking hate this so much.
I miss you so much, I miss talking to you.
I miss us being happy.
:(
Im not a bad person. Im just a fucking idiot.
I love you so much more than you will ever know.
Id do anything, babe.
Im so sorry.
Dont give up on me. Please.
Youre my everything.
So yeah I feel like total shit because of that.
Its miserable and I still have to deal with getting out of bed and doing work and going to class.
I dont like it.
Im very very tired right now. I might nap.
But I have to write a paper before 5.
I dont think it will take that long but I dont know.
I think I might try to write that right now and nap after?
I dont know.
I cant wait to go home this weekend.
I miss all my friends so much!
I miss kimberly. :(