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i'm dealing with a lot of "what ifs." perhaps if i stand completely still... something great might eventually happen. i'm not down on my life or the predicted future i have assigned myself. it's more that i really feel like i have no control over anything. please don't give my the standard christian responce: "well you don't have control over anything." because i don't want to loose my respect for you. what if i could go through life starring off into the distance like a vegetable. i bet i'd be just fine. i bet i'd accomplish a lot. but who cares.