you dont want this sympathy
had a serious talk with melanie over the fone today. according to her i dont control everything. (i like to think i do.) i worry about her....i still love her. ellis needs to come out and have a little danse. and when i say danse i mean hands like pancakes.
my thankgiving consisted of hanging around cold rainy new york city trying to make a dollar to get on the NJ transit to trenton. i was supposed to get there by 1pm, didnt make it til 7. had a seizure at penn station. my love affair with the city is over...for good ths time.
i am at hans's parents house now with his 2 brothers and younger sister. everyone is so nice here. i really hope lily can come to NC with hans and me.
when i was at the city i was at the verge of a nervous breakdown. i saw lily for about 20 minutes before i got kicked out of her apartment, and in those 20 minutes she informed me that ALL of my friends are dead. ALL of them. gone. in the 4 months i have been absent from the city, they all managed to find some way to kill themselves or get murdered. so some old comrade whisked me to upstate new york to calm down or something in the most boring little village in the country. i spent my time there masturbating and eating, in that order. i want to come home...i miss benny.
my thankgiving consisted of hanging around cold rainy new york city trying to make a dollar to get on the NJ transit to trenton. i was supposed to get there by 1pm, didnt make it til 7. had a seizure at penn station. my love affair with the city is over...for good ths time.
i am at hans's parents house now with his 2 brothers and younger sister. everyone is so nice here. i really hope lily can come to NC with hans and me.
when i was at the city i was at the verge of a nervous breakdown. i saw lily for about 20 minutes before i got kicked out of her apartment, and in those 20 minutes she informed me that ALL of my friends are dead. ALL of them. gone. in the 4 months i have been absent from the city, they all managed to find some way to kill themselves or get murdered. so some old comrade whisked me to upstate new york to calm down or something in the most boring little village in the country. i spent my time there masturbating and eating, in that order. i want to come home...i miss benny.