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It hurts, yes. I'm going to be okay, though.
I learned more tonight than I thought I would.
After getting the other side of the story(thanks man), I felt it again. The overwhelming pain that just twists up your insides. I had actually expected to hit Zach. Really fuck him up. But I do realize that he hurt too. We'll hang out again. Right now, I just need to be held. The crying fits are fewer and further apart, less intense. I can finally bare that image. The pain is still there, but I know the wounds will eventually heal. However, the scar will remain. My trust and my heart are somewhat ruined. The shaking has subsided somewhat and I think I will be able to look at Zach in the eyes, again.
I'm okay for now, and I thank those that showed that they cared: Steph, Shantelle, Ronni, Becky, Nicole
...Zach.
I wish I could be shallow.
I hurt a lot.
But the love is still there for the both of them.
Maybe tomorrow, I'll feel good enough to finally stay at work. If I miss another day, I'm "done", as my boss told me while I was literally crying.
Dink
The invinsible Dube flies again!
I learned more tonight than I thought I would.
After getting the other side of the story(thanks man), I felt it again. The overwhelming pain that just twists up your insides. I had actually expected to hit Zach. Really fuck him up. But I do realize that he hurt too. We'll hang out again. Right now, I just need to be held. The crying fits are fewer and further apart, less intense. I can finally bare that image. The pain is still there, but I know the wounds will eventually heal. However, the scar will remain. My trust and my heart are somewhat ruined. The shaking has subsided somewhat and I think I will be able to look at Zach in the eyes, again.
I'm okay for now, and I thank those that showed that they cared: Steph, Shantelle, Ronni, Becky, Nicole
...Zach.
I wish I could be shallow.
I hurt a lot.
But the love is still there for the both of them.
Maybe tomorrow, I'll feel good enough to finally stay at work. If I miss another day, I'm "done", as my boss told me while I was literally crying.
Dink
The invinsible Dube flies again!