i dont want a rash on my arms to explain
i thought this was over, the nightly phone calls almost stoped, i thought i could stop being scared, i thought i could just go back at a "normal" life. but today i was remined that i'll live in fear forever, and life will never just be normal. this is what happen some old guy started following me and melanie and corinne, it was really scary, if you want the details just ask me, but thats not what bothered me so bad. the whole time he was following us i was thinking "this is it, it's over, this is the guy who killed my mom, and now he's got me, and i cant do anything, and i brought melanie and corinne in this with me." i FUCKING HATE thinking like that, but it what i always do. i hate looking over my shoulder all the time, and wondering if he knows where i live, and if today, if today is the day he'll find my family agian. it's not all ways on my mind, but it's always in the back of my mind, and i thought i could just leave it there untill i could forget.and then days like today happen, but i can be brave, and i am brave, because i'v always been the brave one, but when i'm alone i fall apart. i wanted to call someone, but i couldn't, i just stay brave......