Jesus
Today has been on of the longest days in my entire life. I didn't sleep much last night, (more on that later), and woke up after only 3 hours of sleep, to go help Robert finally move everything. Well, 12 hours later, we finally had him completely moved. I'm exhausted. My eyes hurt, my bones hurt, my everything hurts, but we finally accomplished what we set out to do. Thank god!
I couldn't sleep last night, I dunno why, just couldn't for the life of me sleep. I had nothing but time on my hands to think, and be alone with my thoughts, nobody was there to talk to, even my mother was gone for most of the night until 4am. When I finally got to sleep at like 5am, I kept having nightmares. Horrid, horrid, heartwrenching nightmares...the ones where you wake up crying so hard you almost forget to breathe, and when you do breathe, the pain is so intense you almost wonder why you actually continued to breathe. Then reality sinks in, you remember where you are, and the pain hurts worse because the nightmare's meaning has already happened. That happened 2 or 3 times last night, and now, I fear sleeping at all.
My secret sins
I've lied to you, and I've lied to me
I made believe my heart was free
The ache inside hasn't gone away
It wasn't then, and it isn't today
Sorrow is deeper then I've ever known
How do I cope with what I am shown
You've moved on I said I can too
Yet here I sit still in love with you
I've said my hope was all but gone
I couldn't have been more horribly wrong
I try and try to keep my feelings restrained
I cry and I cry but it's all in vain
You need your time, to discover a new
What I need don't matter, cuz I need you
I promised I wouldn't push anymore
So I shut my mouth and closed the door
I've hidden inside, all that I feel
Dreams at night, telling me what's real
Nightmares that haunt me my personal hell
When are my dreams reality, I cannot tell
My sins are my secrets, I've hidden so long
My disapointments my fault, I'm holding on.
-=-Josh-=-
I couldn't sleep last night, I dunno why, just couldn't for the life of me sleep. I had nothing but time on my hands to think, and be alone with my thoughts, nobody was there to talk to, even my mother was gone for most of the night until 4am. When I finally got to sleep at like 5am, I kept having nightmares. Horrid, horrid, heartwrenching nightmares...the ones where you wake up crying so hard you almost forget to breathe, and when you do breathe, the pain is so intense you almost wonder why you actually continued to breathe. Then reality sinks in, you remember where you are, and the pain hurts worse because the nightmare's meaning has already happened. That happened 2 or 3 times last night, and now, I fear sleeping at all.
My secret sins
I've lied to you, and I've lied to me
I made believe my heart was free
The ache inside hasn't gone away
It wasn't then, and it isn't today
Sorrow is deeper then I've ever known
How do I cope with what I am shown
You've moved on I said I can too
Yet here I sit still in love with you
I've said my hope was all but gone
I couldn't have been more horribly wrong
I try and try to keep my feelings restrained
I cry and I cry but it's all in vain
You need your time, to discover a new
What I need don't matter, cuz I need you
I promised I wouldn't push anymore
So I shut my mouth and closed the door
I've hidden inside, all that I feel
Dreams at night, telling me what's real
Nightmares that haunt me my personal hell
When are my dreams reality, I cannot tell
My sins are my secrets, I've hidden so long
My disapointments my fault, I'm holding on.
-=-Josh-=-