My hands are shaking...
My hands are shaking, my eyes full of tears
The dark storms of hate, tearing all around
My world has dissapeared, given way to pain
The depths of hell draw nearer each breath
My thoughts so scattered, so tortured inside
Like a child's need, for his mother's love
Nothing I do, ever good enough for you
Nothing I ever do, good enough for me
Cut down at the knees, kicked until still
One minute I'm loved, the next I'm her hell
The devil's child, she wishes never happened
Mother can you hear me, dying inside for you
When can I be your son, instead of your misery
I try and try the best I can to make you happy
To do what's right, to be your son, not good enough
No blame for my hurt, the blame is all on me
Afraid of being hurt, like you left me long ago
I shield myself from others, cast them from view
I thought I couldn't hurt, if nobody got inside
I finally let one in, she left me just like you
My one true love, left to find what's new
Again I'm not good enough, not at this time
Off to a deeper pull, questioned by lies
Forsaken from her heart, embraced by nothing
I could've given all, instead I showed her you
The flames burn insde, too heated for me to dowse
Roses wilt, paint melts, my house of cards ablaze
Love was right inside, and I couldnt let it out
The storms set me free, love within my grasp
I couldn't hold on, too late, unforgiven sins
I fought and fought to show her she's my world
I tried and tried to be who I am inside
Blackened storm, I was reborn, just not good enough.
-=-Josh-=-
06-06-2004
The dark storms of hate, tearing all around
My world has dissapeared, given way to pain
The depths of hell draw nearer each breath
My thoughts so scattered, so tortured inside
Like a child's need, for his mother's love
Nothing I do, ever good enough for you
Nothing I ever do, good enough for me
Cut down at the knees, kicked until still
One minute I'm loved, the next I'm her hell
The devil's child, she wishes never happened
Mother can you hear me, dying inside for you
When can I be your son, instead of your misery
I try and try the best I can to make you happy
To do what's right, to be your son, not good enough
No blame for my hurt, the blame is all on me
Afraid of being hurt, like you left me long ago
I shield myself from others, cast them from view
I thought I couldn't hurt, if nobody got inside
I finally let one in, she left me just like you
My one true love, left to find what's new
Again I'm not good enough, not at this time
Off to a deeper pull, questioned by lies
Forsaken from her heart, embraced by nothing
I could've given all, instead I showed her you
The flames burn insde, too heated for me to dowse
Roses wilt, paint melts, my house of cards ablaze
Love was right inside, and I couldnt let it out
The storms set me free, love within my grasp
I couldn't hold on, too late, unforgiven sins
I fought and fought to show her she's my world
I tried and tried to be who I am inside
Blackened storm, I was reborn, just not good enough.
-=-Josh-=-
06-06-2004