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hey. so bear with me. i have a lot to say and i don't really know how to say it. since i last wrote, the following events have occured:
i moved back to ireland and lived with eoin for three weeks. it was wonderful and i'm very much in love. i'm also starting counseling soon because he helped me to realize that i'm not doing very well right now. in a way it's kind of exciting, because i might actually feel better. like a lot better. maybe even soon. i hope so at least.
vicky got pregnant. she's keeping the baby and was already living with the father, whom i adore. so i'm going to be an aunt on or around may 5th, 2004.
i started classes again. yesterday. i think i'm really going to like them. they are:
quantum mechanics
classical fields theory
abstract algebra
finite fields and coding theory
differential geometry
i'm glad i wrote them down. they make me feel smart. :)
i'm looking forward to this year, even though i get very sad sometimes. i have a feeling that it's going to be a year where a lot changes. both around me and inside me. and i think it's going to be good.
i've dropped in dozens of job applications and have yet to get a job. i think i'm goin to apply to the mcdonalds down the street from me. it's a crap job, i know, but it pays, and i need the money.
i'm back with the neary's now and last night marie lit a fire in the fireplace. winter is back and it gets dark around seven. it's so cozy there and marie calls me her adopted daughter. it's nice being an adopted daughter. the other day i was very sad and i went to talk to marie. i started crying and she told me about the old lady she looks after, and how she tells marie about her angel. the angel that whispers in her ear and looks after her. i don't believe in angels, other than people, but it was still very warm. i've always wanted to know someone like marie. she's very wise. and i'm very lucky.
i moved back to ireland and lived with eoin for three weeks. it was wonderful and i'm very much in love. i'm also starting counseling soon because he helped me to realize that i'm not doing very well right now. in a way it's kind of exciting, because i might actually feel better. like a lot better. maybe even soon. i hope so at least.
vicky got pregnant. she's keeping the baby and was already living with the father, whom i adore. so i'm going to be an aunt on or around may 5th, 2004.
i started classes again. yesterday. i think i'm really going to like them. they are:
quantum mechanics
classical fields theory
abstract algebra
finite fields and coding theory
differential geometry
i'm glad i wrote them down. they make me feel smart. :)
i'm looking forward to this year, even though i get very sad sometimes. i have a feeling that it's going to be a year where a lot changes. both around me and inside me. and i think it's going to be good.
i've dropped in dozens of job applications and have yet to get a job. i think i'm goin to apply to the mcdonalds down the street from me. it's a crap job, i know, but it pays, and i need the money.
i'm back with the neary's now and last night marie lit a fire in the fireplace. winter is back and it gets dark around seven. it's so cozy there and marie calls me her adopted daughter. it's nice being an adopted daughter. the other day i was very sad and i went to talk to marie. i started crying and she told me about the old lady she looks after, and how she tells marie about her angel. the angel that whispers in her ear and looks after her. i don't believe in angels, other than people, but it was still very warm. i've always wanted to know someone like marie. she's very wise. and i'm very lucky.