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The past couple of days have been weird. I don't know how to explain it but I just haven't felt "myself". I want so badly to be able to enjoy this summer, but so far things have just been okay. I've managed to find a guy who's great, but things will never work out, piss off a friend for telling the truth, and then last night I found a note in my bed from my mom. She tried telling me that I shouldn't feel bad about going to college (I know this is starting to sound weird but just continue reading), despite our financial situation she said we'll find a way to work things out. Well some of you may know that my dad's company was out-bid on their contract so basically as of August 1st he will be unemployed. Thankfully he's lined up another job, the only setback is he'll be making less money. Since I'm such an "overthinker" I've just felt really bad about pushing more costs onto my parents plate. I'm not saying we're poor, but every bit counts. So I'm doing my best to save all of the money I get from graduation and I'm hoping to find a job. If I can't find a job for the next two months I'm going to have to depend on babysitting, which isn't very promising nowadays. I guess this trip to Florida in a week is coming just in time. I just need to get away for a little bit and hopefully by the time I come back I'll have things sorted out and know my plan of action. I have a feeling this weekend will help to brighten things up...between Danielle's block party as well as the other grad parties on Saturday, and then my graduation party Sunday--there is definitely some fun to be had. Well I think I might go watch a movie...leave me something!