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this weekend was tiring. on friday me and dan hung out, and met up with kate and john..because they were hangin out. found out john likes me or whatever. it pisses me off. he's so fuckin dumb. now both of my friend johns' like me. gah. i pretty much hung out with kate all weekend. we went to candis's house on sunday. b/c kate and candis were dying their hair, they decided to put an enormous chunk of black in my hair. it looks cool, if everyone's hair wasnt already black. my brother is such a fag. today before 4th hour, this cool girl's (alysha) boyfriend (jake) was being a dick to her, so i went up and pushed him, and nik was telling him to beat me up, so me and him started fighting and i ended up hitting the floor. and then slipped in my own spit. yay. i dont know what i'm doing this week. i'm going to get a job, i think i'm going to apply at pamida. i'm really anxious and excited today. i dont know why. but i've been thinking alot about myself lately, and alot about other people. and i dont know what to do about it. i'm so stressed out right now. my life is content. i'm not super happy or super depressed. i'm in between. and my 16th birthday is coming up and i have nothing to hope for, nothing that i'm excited about. it's another day to me. and that's sad.
looking through the tunnel you'll only find the light at the end of it. you have to go through it, to make it to the end.