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oh this journey...
it is much more beautiful to find enlightenment and not dwell in it, because it is finding it that is beautiful.
reality slapped me in the fucking face today and put me in a whirlwind of bitchy thought, negative agenda, sadness, depression, and pissed offness. i dont want to deal right now yet i know i am dealing with it more then i would think i would be. i dont know if that makes sense to you. oh well...
time, energy, money. if i think of any of these things to a far enough extent i dont feel like doing anything anymore. my head hurts. it is the reality of the situations and that brings it down, because this external world seems to bring me down instead of bringing me up, more of my dreams that do that.
on edge but still here.
i guess that is good for now.
this entry it weird as fuck. peace.
it is much more beautiful to find enlightenment and not dwell in it, because it is finding it that is beautiful.
reality slapped me in the fucking face today and put me in a whirlwind of bitchy thought, negative agenda, sadness, depression, and pissed offness. i dont want to deal right now yet i know i am dealing with it more then i would think i would be. i dont know if that makes sense to you. oh well...
time, energy, money. if i think of any of these things to a far enough extent i dont feel like doing anything anymore. my head hurts. it is the reality of the situations and that brings it down, because this external world seems to bring me down instead of bringing me up, more of my dreams that do that.
on edge but still here.
i guess that is good for now.
this entry it weird as fuck. peace.