fandom_muses topic #14: Where do you see yourself in twenty years?
I don't know. I wish that I did. I wish I could tell you that I feel secure enough at this juncture to look forward and see my life in the future. I can't. There is too much uncertainty laying before me right now for me to answer that question honestly.
But...I suppose I can tell you where I'd like to be. I'd like to be happy. Oh, listen to me! How very trite and cliché. Wouldn't we all like to be happy? It should be a simple thing, to ensure one's own happiness, but it never is, is it? Or at least it never has been for me. But it's the truth: I'd like to be happy. Safe. Free. Living my life for myself.
Isn't that obscure? Before Miranda I would have been able to give you a very solid answer to this. I would have been house priestess at the Companion training house. I would have been teaching young girls--girls who had no business attempting to train as Companions at all--the finer arts of pleasure, the disciplines of dance and music, calligraphy, archery. I would have been respected. Well liked, perhaps. Content.
Now...not so much.
Now life is once again a constant chaos, a daily struggle, and endless argument. And you know what's strange? I'm happy.
Maybe there is your answer. Maybe not much will change for me over the next few decades. Maybe everything will stay just as it is. I seriously doubt it...
...But I wouldn't mind it.
Muse: Inara Serra
Fandom: Firefly
Word Count: 254