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so now i'm pretty much in love with chasing cars. i hadn't heard it all summer even though my roomicita had introduced me to it at school. it's beautiful.
tomorrow's my last day here. trying to make myself feel that reality hasn't worked. i don't know if i'm ready to go back. in terms of packing, definitely not! i just started my first load of laundry, ha. i haven't gotten to see everyone i would've liked to before i go back but i've been spending time with a couple and my family so that's good. not knowing my third class yet makes me nervous even though there's nothing i can do about that now. beyond those practical things, i feel unprepared somehow. i don't know if i'm ready to be back in the crazy social situation that is college. this summer has been back to more of what i'm used to. living in my own house where i have so much freedom and space and my pets. my family just minutes away..some of them, at least. i guess it's an obvious thing, but it's my comfort zone. the people i see when i'm home, i've known for so long now and having a circle of friends who are fairly integrated and get along and are dependable. at school, i just haven't found that yet. the friends i have are amazing but for the most part, i feel like they're individual relationships. i don't know. maybe it's just anticipation type nervous. i hope.
tomorrow, there will be cat guardians, lots of laundry/packing, *cross my fingers* the beach, more packing, and seeing my family. and then friday, i'm off..
tomorrow's my last day here. trying to make myself feel that reality hasn't worked. i don't know if i'm ready to go back. in terms of packing, definitely not! i just started my first load of laundry, ha. i haven't gotten to see everyone i would've liked to before i go back but i've been spending time with a couple and my family so that's good. not knowing my third class yet makes me nervous even though there's nothing i can do about that now. beyond those practical things, i feel unprepared somehow. i don't know if i'm ready to be back in the crazy social situation that is college. this summer has been back to more of what i'm used to. living in my own house where i have so much freedom and space and my pets. my family just minutes away..some of them, at least. i guess it's an obvious thing, but it's my comfort zone. the people i see when i'm home, i've known for so long now and having a circle of friends who are fairly integrated and get along and are dependable. at school, i just haven't found that yet. the friends i have are amazing but for the most part, i feel like they're individual relationships. i don't know. maybe it's just anticipation type nervous. i hope.
tomorrow, there will be cat guardians, lots of laundry/packing, *cross my fingers* the beach, more packing, and seeing my family. and then friday, i'm off..