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One of the more bizarre things I've been doing lately is I've been praying nightly before settling into sleep. I used to be really religious when I was a kid, but since about high school I gave up prayer and soon after religion all together. Koreans in the Christian community are standouts in terms of prayer; there's just something about the social pressures which encourages really long and deep prayer. I hadn't realized how much I missed it as a personal expression until I just started doing it one evening. My therapist thinks this is a great idea since I've been reluctant to put things down in a diary or journal and because I don't really talk or vent to friends/family about day to day issues. So far, I've been enjoying it and I actually feel better and more relaxed.
That being said, I really don't believe in religion so it feels a little bit awkward to pray to 'God' about my daily fears, grievances and hopes. So, I've been switching it up by praying to God, The Goddess, Buddha, Vishnu, Ahura Mazda, Apollo Jupiter and Thor; one for a different day of the week. And let me tell you, if I did have to pick a diety to pray too, it would totally be Thor - the marvel superhero. Maybe this cheapens the word prayer, but it definitely different than just talking to myself aloud (and makes me feel a little less insane by the process). It a covenant between me and my supernatural choice of the day, one that I think of very lightly and humorously most of the time, but something I take very seriously once I've gotten myself in the state.
It's weird and strange but it helps me sleep better at night.
That being said, I really don't believe in religion so it feels a little bit awkward to pray to 'God' about my daily fears, grievances and hopes. So, I've been switching it up by praying to God, The Goddess, Buddha, Vishnu, Ahura Mazda, Apollo Jupiter and Thor; one for a different day of the week. And let me tell you, if I did have to pick a diety to pray too, it would totally be Thor - the marvel superhero. Maybe this cheapens the word prayer, but it definitely different than just talking to myself aloud (and makes me feel a little less insane by the process). It a covenant between me and my supernatural choice of the day, one that I think of very lightly and humorously most of the time, but something I take very seriously once I've gotten myself in the state.
It's weird and strange but it helps me sleep better at night.