SIRIUS BLACK: 24 June, 1978
Stuffed into Regulus' bookbag when it was left carelessly unattended for a moment:
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Regulus,
Yes, I know. But don't try to chuck this in the bin just yet. I've spelled the parchment so it will stick to your hand until after you've finished reading the whole thing. And don't try to Incendio it off or use a severing charm either - I've thought of all that already and anything you could possibly think of doing will have very nasty consequences. So you might as well just give it up and keep reading. I have some things to say. even if I'm not really sure what they are yet
First off - I'm not apologising for what I've said or done - there's no point really, is there? I do admit I've been a bit of a beast to both you and Rabastan you sometimes and even though you usually deserved it, I expect I shouldn't have didn't really mean enjoy it half so much as I might have made you think. I imagine you must hate me for that and perhaps you have every right to. We've both said and done a lot of things and neither one of us has changed his mind, so that just leaves us exactly where we are right now - on opposite sid sides of things. Because like it or not, this is about sides. It has to be. That's just the way the game is played.
You're not stupid. I know that much. And maybe that's half the reason why I can't fathom why you let Enodia and Arcturus feed you all the crap they do, have done, will do. They're WRONG, Regulus, and I'm right. You know that. You're just too bloody scared to admit it. This is important. And big - so much bigger than you could possibly understand and I still can't figure how you don't see that.
You used to be my brother. Do you even remember that? Did you forget everything tha As you're all too aware, I'm a Black in name only now, and that just because I can't be bothered to change it. What else would I call myself, anyway? I could do without the Nigellus, certainly, but the rest of it just seems to fit, my status as a blood traitor not withstanding. Plus, it's always satisfying to do something that really sets Enodia on a tear and one more filthy halfblood-lover walking about with her precious name attached to him, disowned or not, is bound to make her grind her teeth just a little. When the Lady Black is tossing and turning on her satin pillow I know I've done my job properly. But I'm getting away from the point.
I'm leaving, as you know, and I'm off to do things that will really matter and make a difference to a lot of people. If you want to stay trapped under Mummy's and Daddy's thumbs, that's your business, but you're worth mo you could do more than that. Why spend your life being a ridiculous pawn when there are so many other choices? There is a whole, big world out there that you seem to have forgotten. There is so much more to see than the garden at Grimmauld Place - so much more to do than sit about in dark rooms, waiting to be crushed under the weight of Hundreds of Years of Family History.
Still, I don't imagine my saying all of this really means anything. You always have been a stubborn little sod.
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I don't expect this really makes any difference, but I wanted to say it just the same as I don't know when I might see you again. Don't worry. I do have other better things to do than come stalk you at school.
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I already know where I'm going. I hope you find what you're looking for.
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