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Mar 02, 2005 20:47

Yeah, so I'm not sure how I'm feeling right now.

Things are not a mess, they just smell bad. Kinda like the sushi I wrapped late last night. I don't know, I'm finding out more and more that I don't have many heros. People I saw as beautiful, unique and intriguing are selfish, closed-minded, and not worth my time (plus they smell bad.)

Where in my life should I let God take over, and where has God already taken over? I'm often confused by this. Seriously, how do I know that the things I feel fulfillment in, are caused by the spirit? Am I lying to myself and quenching the Spirit? What does God want from me the most? Can I truly give it to him, or will I be rich in myself and not pass through the eye of the needle? In what aspect is God speaking to me strongest in? Do I sincerely care what about what He is revealing to me?

Am I progressing any with past sins? Is God trying to pass me through that sin, or first show me that His grace is sufficiant for ME?

Truth be told guys, I'm not so sure about next year. Alot of people I love will probably be gone; not just because they are going to college or moving away...just other reasons.

Craig's voice often echos through my mind. Last time we talked he pointed out to me that John 3:16, the most famous verse in the Bible, which has probably saved more people than any other, was the result of a conversation Jesus held with Nicodemus. Nicodemus was a man scared to follow Jesus, who only went to see Jesus at night. However, God used Nicodemus and still delivers powerful messages through his story. Am I as cowardly as Nicodemus? Is this where God desires me to be? Is he molding me now for immense glory? Am I molding myself for utter defeat?

Often I'm nervous because I look at where my sins have brought me rather than at where God has brought me. Can I see the difference?

I made sushi for my speech class today. Most of them were lame and resisted tasting it. It kind of discouraged me, I worked really hard on my presentation. There is more in case you all want some.

Bennett + sweater = pony.
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