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as the academic year here grinds to a start, and i have to make sure preparations are ready for the influx of new students and their inductions one particular student who is going to start intrigues me. because unless there are a number of people who share holly's rather unique surname, then an old colleague of mine - not so much a friend, although we did get on fine - from loughborough days is starting the PGCE course in september. this is particularly odd because this is what i aim to be doing - although with further education - myself in a year's time so somehow or other holly has along the line, i'm assuming, also become disillusioned with the world of librarianship. also means i have to doubly make sure i know what i'm talking about in her inductions as she got a better degree than me i think. oops!
as sarah is due in three weeks, and the commutes to winchester begin i'm slowly beginning to plot my own plans for next year. the thing is i'm currently torn between the initial plan - to apply to do further education PGCE in media studies - or going the much harder, but ultimately more rewarding phd route. the only problem with the phd route is i'm - well - as you may know not exactly overflowing with confidence in myself and my own abilities, even though i am rightly proud of my MA. i do wonder whether i'd be able to hold my own in any sort of proper academic discipline though - but i also know that i need to (and i mean NEED to) go back to film. it's what i understand, it's what i know, it's what i love, it's what i get giddily excited about even if i can't always articulate it well. i also significantly worry about funding - sarah will be substantially in debt, and i'm only just recovering from the MA debts. if i did the PGCE training then i'd get some funding and support myself but probably not so likely if i went for the phd. i'm really torn here. part of me thinks i should just apply for both, so that if i'm disappointed in my application for the phds and particularly some form of funding i'll at least be in the PGCE world. i'm really not sure. all i know is that this time next year i want to be teaching my replacement how to do this job and know i'm going up on the ladder of career progression in a field i actively want to do
does anyone have any thoughts or guidance? i'd really appreciate all or any feedback you may have...
as sarah is due in three weeks, and the commutes to winchester begin i'm slowly beginning to plot my own plans for next year. the thing is i'm currently torn between the initial plan - to apply to do further education PGCE in media studies - or going the much harder, but ultimately more rewarding phd route. the only problem with the phd route is i'm - well - as you may know not exactly overflowing with confidence in myself and my own abilities, even though i am rightly proud of my MA. i do wonder whether i'd be able to hold my own in any sort of proper academic discipline though - but i also know that i need to (and i mean NEED to) go back to film. it's what i understand, it's what i know, it's what i love, it's what i get giddily excited about even if i can't always articulate it well. i also significantly worry about funding - sarah will be substantially in debt, and i'm only just recovering from the MA debts. if i did the PGCE training then i'd get some funding and support myself but probably not so likely if i went for the phd. i'm really torn here. part of me thinks i should just apply for both, so that if i'm disappointed in my application for the phds and particularly some form of funding i'll at least be in the PGCE world. i'm really not sure. all i know is that this time next year i want to be teaching my replacement how to do this job and know i'm going up on the ladder of career progression in a field i actively want to do
does anyone have any thoughts or guidance? i'd really appreciate all or any feedback you may have...