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Dec 04, 2005 00:26

I wish for once, I had a parental figure to joke around with. I hate living with my mom. I can never joke around with her, and when I call her names jokingly, she takes it offensively. I honestly hate her job. She never has time to joke around with me and her job makes her so stuck up and professional like. I wish she'd wake up and smell the coffee for a change and just live life relaxingly. She always thinks of me negatively and I wish she'd just stop. I want a parent where I can tell them whatever I desire and I wish I had a parent where they didn't care if I spent the night over someone's house. I want to be able to be with friends when I want to. Im always the one left out of things because my mother holds me back. I can't even go to shows or anything because I have my mother holding me back. I just wish for once she'd relax. I want her to be happy with her life and have time for me for a change It makes me angry when I see kids having fun with their parents because for me, I know that can never happen. I always want to hang around my friends parents because they can take jokes and have a good time being around their kids. I want to have a parent where it'd be ok to have fun for a change. My mom's idea of fun is going to church listening to a christian concert. I hate that. I sit there bored to death. My mother never acknowledges me for anything. To tell you the truth, I absolutely hate being around my mom because when I am, we never have fun and we never can talk about things that are going on in our life. I want to live in a foster home. I wish I could. I love weekdays because I know that I dont have to see my mom until 6 in the evening. It makes me feel so happy when I'm not around her. I enjoy school because I know I am not around my mom. My mom was happy when my father was alive and ever since he died, she has been too worried about bills, the house, her job, making sure I have food to eat, etc. I want to be a normal kid and not be a person who knows that I can never have fun with my mother. I absolutely want a normal life. Everytime I get As on papers or schoolwork, she always blows me off because she expects it. I just wish she'd understand what I go through daily. She thinks my life is perfect and its not. Every time I tell her that she is too professional like and her job makes her stuck up, she denies it and says "My job does not make me who I am." Bullshit. Her job is her life. When she comes home from work or whatever, she never asks me how my days is, and we barely say two words to each other. Hi and bye if I lucky. I want a NORMAL life. I want a NORMAL life. I want my mom to be happy and I want things to be right in her life. Even though I do sometimes tell her I hate her and say negative things to her, deep down inside, she means alot to me, but I just want her to take things easy for a change and go on with her life. I want things to be right in my life.

(EDIT) I wish my friends and I could live together legally and just live life to the fullest.
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