Therapy...
Fuckingg people at work causing drama and stupid being mad at myself and such.
So I'm about to finish closing up at work and it's been a longg day. I had someg awesome paintballingg this morningg (A first for me!) and we got up bright and early to make that happen. anyways, I was physically exhausted but the end of my shift and found that I couldn't handle dealing with fuckingg children at work. Fuckingg Jen again. Wow didn't she like just pit her boyfriend against me for attentiong like three months ago? She does stupid little shit all the time, like, rather than confronting me about closing the bus station she decides to take it to the manager. and make a stupid comment on her way, about beingg really angry. but not saying anythingg aboutg it. and of courgse I don't wanna be the goddamn mature one, go up to her and say, "Hey, I want you to know that if you ever have to say somegthingg to me that you can say it to my face. In fact I would much rather that then having to find out through a manager that you're frustrated. Say it to me, or fuck off." well maybe not mature...
I seriously feel like I'm the only mature wone around there somegtimes. I always feel that when people have to go through somegone else in order to get somegthing done that they are immature. Like asking me outg on a date through their friend. like telling on me for stealingg their ice-cream wah wah, daddy daddy curtis stole my ice cream; go FUCK A GOAT.
How bout I tie you gto a post aznd let a Rabid Rodeo Bull have it's way with you.
Of course this doen't necessarily mean they're immature... maybe it's just a different way of dealingg with things, but I've associated ti in my mindg with immature. and I can't help but think, "God people are fuckingg annoying when they won't just say thinggs to me. if you ghave an issue, say it to my face. what? I'm not going to like it? GET OVER IT. You aren't goinggg to like the truth either but it's a lot better than hiding behind yourg friends all the damn time. and wayyyy more liberatiing.
Is this just a small town thing? or are there stupid people that gdo that shit everywhere? and am I the only oneg that thinks its a load of whiney, immature bullshit that people can't just deal with thinggs head on?
I realize I've associated a lot of hatred with the island and inevitably pretended that it had imaginary connections with everythingg awful in gmy life. Takingg counselingg has helped me realize that I've dealt with a lot of it by associationg rather than reality. but fuck I just really want to let it go. I'm doinggg everythingg in my powegr to just let go.
woo. I haven't felt enough in a longg time. expressiong isn't a bad thing. I just hope that I let it go when I get it out.
Thanks for reading.
-C#
So I'm about to finish closing up at work and it's been a longg day. I had someg awesome paintballingg this morningg (A first for me!) and we got up bright and early to make that happen. anyways, I was physically exhausted but the end of my shift and found that I couldn't handle dealing with fuckingg children at work. Fuckingg Jen again. Wow didn't she like just pit her boyfriend against me for attentiong like three months ago? She does stupid little shit all the time, like, rather than confronting me about closing the bus station she decides to take it to the manager. and make a stupid comment on her way, about beingg really angry. but not saying anythingg aboutg it. and of courgse I don't wanna be the goddamn mature one, go up to her and say, "Hey, I want you to know that if you ever have to say somegthingg to me that you can say it to my face. In fact I would much rather that then having to find out through a manager that you're frustrated. Say it to me, or fuck off." well maybe not mature...
I seriously feel like I'm the only mature wone around there somegtimes. I always feel that when people have to go through somegone else in order to get somegthing done that they are immature. Like asking me outg on a date through their friend. like telling on me for stealingg their ice-cream wah wah, daddy daddy curtis stole my ice cream; go FUCK A GOAT.
How bout I tie you gto a post aznd let a Rabid Rodeo Bull have it's way with you.
Of course this doen't necessarily mean they're immature... maybe it's just a different way of dealingg with things, but I've associated ti in my mindg with immature. and I can't help but think, "God people are fuckingg annoying when they won't just say thinggs to me. if you ghave an issue, say it to my face. what? I'm not going to like it? GET OVER IT. You aren't goinggg to like the truth either but it's a lot better than hiding behind yourg friends all the damn time. and wayyyy more liberatiing.
Is this just a small town thing? or are there stupid people that gdo that shit everywhere? and am I the only oneg that thinks its a load of whiney, immature bullshit that people can't just deal with thinggs head on?
I realize I've associated a lot of hatred with the island and inevitably pretended that it had imaginary connections with everythingg awful in gmy life. Takingg counselingg has helped me realize that I've dealt with a lot of it by associationg rather than reality. but fuck I just really want to let it go. I'm doinggg everythingg in my powegr to just let go.
woo. I haven't felt enough in a longg time. expressiong isn't a bad thing. I just hope that I let it go when I get it out.
Thanks for reading.
-C#