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shit guy..i wanted to copy and paste what i had just written to jen so i wouldn't have to type it out again but i closed the window. EEDIOT. anyway, here's the 411. today i feel free. i feel happy and good and it has a lot to do with the fact that its fucking beautiful outside and i finally finished an essay that was a week late and handed it in yesterday. and today i wrote two more essays for a take home exam for the same class due tomorrow. but they were easy cuz i take awesome lecture notes. and theres more...
yesterday i went to johns house. we chilled, and talked, and listened to bjork and sexed it up and it was a great time. but the best part is that on the drive home i realized..i don't care anymore! last week i was a wreck. i was freaking out about whether he liked me, or didn't like me, whether he wanted a relationship or not..and all these things. jen knows what i'm saying when i say i was going MENTAL. listening to emo love songs and i start crying..in the library..while i'm writing essays! haha. i know ya'll think i'm gay but it hurt! anyway...on the drive home, like i said, i realized that all the overreacting and overemotional i was getting last week is probably due to all (and maybe more) of the following factors:
a) school stress. its self explanatory.
b)PMS. my period is supposed to start any day now. gotta love those crazy hormonal fluctuations.
c)last week it was new. SO new. i met him online friday, went out saturday and sunday and had the most amazing time. i didn't know much about him (i still don't now) so i assumed all this stuff about him and in my head he was PERFECT for me. i realize now (even though its only been two weeks...haha) that he's not perfect. nobody is really and it doesn't matter. i guess i just woke up. saw the light. i'm gonna go with the flow. and hope that at this time, next month..i'm not crying my eyes out.
the end. or is it...dun dun DUNNNN. just kidding. oh yeah its not the end. tomorrow night i'm going to see the weakerthans/constantines with l'il d and i couldn't be more excited.
yesterday i went to johns house. we chilled, and talked, and listened to bjork and sexed it up and it was a great time. but the best part is that on the drive home i realized..i don't care anymore! last week i was a wreck. i was freaking out about whether he liked me, or didn't like me, whether he wanted a relationship or not..and all these things. jen knows what i'm saying when i say i was going MENTAL. listening to emo love songs and i start crying..in the library..while i'm writing essays! haha. i know ya'll think i'm gay but it hurt! anyway...on the drive home, like i said, i realized that all the overreacting and overemotional i was getting last week is probably due to all (and maybe more) of the following factors:
a) school stress. its self explanatory.
b)PMS. my period is supposed to start any day now. gotta love those crazy hormonal fluctuations.
c)last week it was new. SO new. i met him online friday, went out saturday and sunday and had the most amazing time. i didn't know much about him (i still don't now) so i assumed all this stuff about him and in my head he was PERFECT for me. i realize now (even though its only been two weeks...haha) that he's not perfect. nobody is really and it doesn't matter. i guess i just woke up. saw the light. i'm gonna go with the flow. and hope that at this time, next month..i'm not crying my eyes out.
the end. or is it...dun dun DUNNNN. just kidding. oh yeah its not the end. tomorrow night i'm going to see the weakerthans/constantines with l'il d and i couldn't be more excited.