Yesterday I saw a hundred purple balloons floating above the interestate.
I've had a lot of time to think lately, what with working at the theatre and doing entirely unstimulating things for hours each day. I think I'm kind of depressed but somehow it's not because my mind is messed up, it's because the world is so entirely tragic. I've also been sucking at life hardercore than usual Example: Yesterday I am supposed to pick up my best friend at 2. I get sucked into doing stuff at my sister's party and forget. I call him 2 hrs. later, he's gone and never calls me back=he obviously hates me.
I may just be saying all this because I am incredibly frustrated with the entire state of affairs in my life right now, and my fucking computer hasn't allowed me to check my email for 2 weeks or get on AIM EVER. But I think that IF it would truly not effect anyone else I'd rather not continue with this whole life charade. Unfortunately the condition of the world guarantees that each person's life impacts others. If only I could find a way to defy physics and complete an action for which there is no equal or opposite reaction. Which is impossible i.e. why these feelings are no cause for concern. And I really don't think this has anything to do with my computer.
I don't want pity, and I don't mean to complain. This is just how I am feeling right now on May 29th at 1 pm. going on 3 hours of sleep. Did I remember to mention that every time I have tried to answer my home phone in the past two weeks I have hung up on whoever was calling? Home life...what a joy.
I may just be saying all this because I am incredibly frustrated with the entire state of affairs in my life right now, and my fucking computer hasn't allowed me to check my email for 2 weeks or get on AIM EVER. But I think that IF it would truly not effect anyone else I'd rather not continue with this whole life charade. Unfortunately the condition of the world guarantees that each person's life impacts others. If only I could find a way to defy physics and complete an action for which there is no equal or opposite reaction. Which is impossible i.e. why these feelings are no cause for concern. And I really don't think this has anything to do with my computer.
I don't want pity, and I don't mean to complain. This is just how I am feeling right now on May 29th at 1 pm. going on 3 hours of sleep. Did I remember to mention that every time I have tried to answer my home phone in the past two weeks I have hung up on whoever was calling? Home life...what a joy.