Once upon a time, the words would have jostled him into action. Had him jumping through the hoops in a second; filled him with a fiery passion to be that one thing no one else could stomach being. To do the job that no one else could, or wanted, do. It was something he'd been fiercely proud of at the time, his ability to look past the details and see the bigger picture. See that what he was doing, though morally wrong in itself, was for the betterment of the country. See the worth in an act most considered incomprehensible. It was necessary, and someone had to do it. Someone had to protect the people - not only from terrorists and tyrants, but from the knowledge of assassinations and torture too.
The government called and he'd come running; but after the fact, he'd be left all alone to justify his actions to himself. Eliot got really good at justifying his actions.
It was almost the same thing with a crew, except they didn't rely on his moral ambiguity to get a job done. They didn't send him into danger heedlessly. They didn't use him as a trained killer, pointing him in the right direction and letting him loose.
He'd taken an oath for his country, but that day, he realized he had another commitment. A commitment that ran deeper than any words or patriotism could.
Once upon a time, the words would have jostled him into action. Had him jumping through the hoops in a second; filled him with a fiery passion to be that one thing no one else could stomach being. To do the job that no one else could, or wanted, do. It was something he'd been fiercely proud of at the time, his ability to look past the details and see the bigger picture. See that what he was doing, though morally wrong in itself, was for the betterment of the country. See the worth in an act most considered incomprehensible. It was necessary, and someone had to do it. Someone had to protect the people - not only from terrorists and tyrants, but from the knowledge of assassinations and torture too.
The government called and he'd come running; but after the fact, he'd be left all alone to justify his actions to himself. Eliot got really good at justifying his actions.
It was almost the same thing with a crew, except they didn't rely on his moral ambiguity to get a job done. They didn't send him into danger heedlessly. They didn't use him as a trained killer, pointing him in the right direction and letting him loose.
He'd taken an oath for his country, but that day, he realized he had another commitment. A commitment that ran deeper than any words or patriotism could.
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