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mmmmmm..... well the selling of the house thing is going ahead. we're proceeding as if we are going to sell it in a couple of weeks. if trading saves us and we don't have to, that will be a nice bonus. though me and dad havent given up on making that work yet, i must admit the feeling of just letting go and submitting is a good one. it's familiar too, i think i've done that a fair bit in my life. i seem to prefer just letting go and giving up for the comfort of it. not having to put in all that effort. inertia. it's a serious flaw of mine (well i guess all matter has it...)
i'd rather not be this way about things though. a lot of me still says we can make the trading happen, but a fair bit is saying ahh just stuff it. anyway it's not the end of the world, we can still do the trading once we've moved and there will be less pressure, we can climb out of that. still going to try and save the day at the last minute though.
the problem still remains that i'm not physically or mentally able to make it happen, barring some rare brief moments. as i write this thinking about the effort i'd have to put in to sit down and look at charts just makes me switch off and want to veg. perhaps i'm fighting a losing battle. hopefully in a winning war. bleh. the only time you've lost is if you've given up or you're dead. i have am and shall be neither.
i'd rather not be this way about things though. a lot of me still says we can make the trading happen, but a fair bit is saying ahh just stuff it. anyway it's not the end of the world, we can still do the trading once we've moved and there will be less pressure, we can climb out of that. still going to try and save the day at the last minute though.
the problem still remains that i'm not physically or mentally able to make it happen, barring some rare brief moments. as i write this thinking about the effort i'd have to put in to sit down and look at charts just makes me switch off and want to veg. perhaps i'm fighting a losing battle. hopefully in a winning war. bleh. the only time you've lost is if you've given up or you're dead. i have am and shall be neither.